Our Love Was Like Catching A Snowflake ...

Monday Blues ...

2012-02-13T23:39:00.001+08:00

Not really, I'm actually off on Monday which kinda makes me happy because Cullen isn't working at all. We had 2 full days together as we both ended our night shift on Sunday morning. Attended one of his friends' wedding but we got there really late. The newly weds went over to other venue. Haha, felt really embarrassed but luckily his mum was really nice to us, didn't felt like a stranger over there.

I'm so excited for my upcoming trip to Bangkok. I think it's my 4th time travelling to Bangkok already. There's no way I'll be bored of Bangkok. There are so many interesting places to visit! Hm.

Anyways, I dislike my roster this time round. Out of the 2 weeks I'm working. I'll be like having 2/3 morning shifts. Ugh, I really hate afternoon. It just totally takes up your whole freaking day. You won't be able to head out to any shopping mall to do any light window/shopping because all mall opens at 11am ):

I'm gonna iron my clothes now! Work tomorrow ): I miss Cullen already.

I don't know why everybody gets so excited especially on Valentine's Day. It doesn't mark a special occasion in my life for coming to 21 years. I've never really think about getting any gifts/chocolates for the special someone even though they mentioned Valentine's Day can be meant for parents/friends too. I mean, you have to cherish everyone in your life. Your parents, your loved ones every single day because you don't know if tomorrow never comes.

Cherish everyone, most important cherish your own life. If you don't love yourself, how will you let others to love you? Cheers mate! :)

Coming to the end of January ...

2012-01-24T09:41:00.002+08:00

How's your Chinese New Year celebration so far? New Year goodies don't seem to tempt me anymore. Stop eating much compared to last few years. Always hogging on to pineapple tarts which I used to hate them and I only eat the one that taste yummy. I will finish it up in no time and will regret later of the calories I've eaten.

First time headed over to Cullen's family side for visiting. It's almost to the other side of Singapore. First time traveled so far for visiting, probably won't be going there any time soon as he also mentioned that he only see them once in a year which is falls on CNY unless there's special occasions e.g. weddings.

I know it's only January but I'm so excited for my Bangkok trip this coming March! Oh my goodness. I'll be playing with Nikon 5100! Sweet, I can't wait to get a hold on it which won't be mine so soon. It'll be a 2ND hand item but I don't mind because it belongs to Cullen's closest friend :)

Got 5 day offs starting of the year which is pretty good. Almost 8-9 months of working but it's always a treat to get out of the hospital when you have to chance to.

I wonder how my friends are getting along in this new year. I haven't been contacting them. I miss them. I miss all of them. Hope you guys are doing well!

To my poly cliques!

Alina, Dorcas, Wang Min, Faith, Shara, Rizuwan!

Miss you all! Hang out soon okay?

To my secondary school girlfriends!

Emerlyn, Ziqian and Alicia!

Contact me whenever you guys are meeting up so I can arrange my time to see you girls more often :)

Not forgetting them ...

Michelle, Fadhilah and Jolene! :)

I doubt they read my blog but it doesn't matter. I want to let the whole world know that I misses them too!

CNY is around the corner.

2012-01-10T23:19:00.000+08:00

All righty! Went to Parkway earlier to redeem $300 NTUC vouchers. Gave $200 to my mum and kept the rest for myself. Studied for BCLS and I got tired and took a nap. I was supposed to go for a run, guess I was too tired waking up 5am in the morning today. BCLS re-certification tomorrow. Wish me luck y'all! :)

Having 5 days of offs for the coming CNY! Hope to do something productive :D

Cya! Update soon.

End of 2011. Beginning of 2012.

2011-12-31T20:33:00.000+08:00

Working life began for me on 30th March 2011 ... it was tough and I always have sleep debt or I claimed to have. It has already been 9 months of working. It's full of ups and downs with your colleagues and other healthcare workers. It hasn't been easy working with the amount of stress I have. I dread heading to work. Taking sick leave almost every month. Sometimes I feel it isn't fair that the top management doesn't understand the job on the floor. They keep adding redundant jobs on top of our daily job description.

Cullen and I celebrated our 6 years anniversary this year. We've been through thick and thin. Planning our future by getting a house, being committed with one another.

Then came my birthday ... my dearest bestfriend, Fadhilah bought me a Polaroid Camera. That was the best present I ever had! My usual suspects and I celebration Wang Min's birthday at Universal Studio Singapore (USS), I hope she really enjoyed her time with us there :)

What else??? Oh yes. My brother finished his National Service (NS) and also started working. Another biggest event in this year is my sister getting married and also giving birth to Police. I would love to meet him soon :)

I also went to USS with Cullen to try Battlestar Galatica and Transformers ride! I had lotsa fun with him. The entire day was well spent with him. Hmm ...

Oh yes!!! My closest friend got married too! Hehe, Fatimatusshara and Rizuwan got married! Hehe. Hopefully they will have offspring soon.

Watched the Apple of My Eye. Kind of like the biggest movie hit with the Singaporeans. To me was kinda okay. My top 3 movies of the year would be:

#01. MI4: The Ghost Protocol

#02. Sherlock Holmes: The Game of Shadows

#03. X-Men First Class

Heh heh. There's a lot more. I will give you top 10 if I have the time but nah ... I'm kinda lazy to list them too.

I'm excited in the coming 2012 where I'll be going overseas to Bangkok, Taiwan, Phuket and to climb Mount Kinabalu! Probably to start taking up part time degree in psychology this coming October intake! Wish me best of luck!

Goodbye 2011 and Hello 2012!

Happy 2012 in advance!

CHEERS!!!

Annoyed.

2011-12-16T14:21:00.001+08:00

I don't understand why my brother cannot get over this bitch. I call her a bitch being she bloody smoked in my house and his friend told me that she is using him. Everybody can see that except my stupid brother. It's been quite a long time since they have broken up and I've caught them together once when he told me they were just friends. Friends wouldn't be holding hands and this bloody bitch won't kiss my brother on his cheeks when he sent her off? Seriously.

I know he still checked on her. Now he has deleted or deactivated his Facebook account but he still follow her on twitter? Gosh, seriously I'm so tired of reminding my brother to get over her. She doesn't like him at all and I don't understand why he doesn't get that. That is what she told me.

That bitch also don't want to back off and keeps leading him off. Fuck!

Post night + 3 days off!

2011-12-10T23:38:00.001+08:00

1st night was all right. 2 admissions out of 10 empty beds. It was a relief. 2nd was slightly busy. I admitted 2 patients, luckily the 2nd case came almost to 6am so mostly like the procedure will be passed over to the morning shift. It was NNP so have a few procedures to be done. Lumbar puncture, in/out and blood taking. Haha. My SSN treated our MacDonald for supper. I wanted to pay her and she said it's okay which I didn't heard her.I still went to my locker, took out $7.20 to pay her. She was like: "Eh! I told you no need." Heh, I wasn't paying attention.

I got pissed of by some incompetent human beings. Seriously, if you're not capable of bringing up children. Please don't make babies and do protected sex. Highly recommended!!!

Went over to Cullen's house right after night shift. Slept at 10am and woke up at 2pm. We went out to Suntec. I bought this Reebok 3/4 fitted pants for $12 bucks. Original price at $36. It's a steal. I was thinking I won't be able to fit into a size S cos it looked really tight. I also thought I won't be able to try clearance items. I saw quite a number of items I want to buy. A pair of wedges from New Look and a pair of iPanema sandals! It's so ex. The sandal cost $39.

Haiyaya. Nothing much to update now.

Most probably going USS on this coming MONDAY with Cullen! I can't wait.

We Found love in a hopeless place.

2011-11-11T20:29:00.001+08:00

Ughhhh …. what the hell seriously. Work was all right … just the previous night shift was super busy and when that happens. Your subsequent work tends to get a little messy setting it straight and it was difficult to do during my time too. Sighhhh. I only had a packet of vitasoy at 6am in the morning and I went NBM after that even after passing report. I just lost the appetite of eating. Knocked off work and bought Mr. Bean with two pancakes and icy pearly soya milk. That was all for today. I’m hungry but I don’t feel like eating. I guess I’m going down to convenient store to buy milk or something.

So fucking tired. I was supposed to go jogging or at least do some work out. I slept past the time I’m supposed to get up. I couldn’t get a good sleep with my grandmother kept banging the wooden door as the door was locked which I didn’t lock the door at all. Another time she got stuck trying to open the gate. Seriously, I don’t how she open the gate at all. I don’t find any difficulty at all and it has been there quite a long time and now she got it all cocked up. Arghhhhh.

Desperately needing of sleep.

Once again ...

2011-11-11T01:01:00.001+08:00

I came home feeling really happy and tired at the same time thinking about work.

All my dad could say to me was asking me to wash my dirty mattress sheets that I've left for over 3-4 days? Why can't we function like a family? Helping one another without question or feeling frustrated.

My shift work sucks big time. I wake up 5AM in the morning for my morning shift and of course, at the end of my shift, I get all lethargic. All my energy were used up working yet I feel like at home, nobody is willing to help one another especially when my mother is away.

I'm so tired being home.

Give me a break already.

Just thinking....

2011-11-09T21:56:00.005+08:00

Recently ... a lot of things just keep running through my mind and I'm feeling frustrated.

Facebook users: it's frustrating that people are posting quotes about love and stuff like that which gets me thinking... how true it is? Is it just gonna be momentarily or permanent. I know I'm super negative about the quotes. Once you get involved with the girl/boy, how do these quotes play a part? Are you sure you'll be able to make him/her happy? After months of relationship, will you still feel the same way from the beginning? In the end, you'll fall apart because it's all one-sided. Guess what, it's all your wishful thinking.

Another thing, the silver tsunami generation. They received a lot of privileges from the goverment through the working class people like us. Do they appreciate what we are doing for them or just taking every single thing for granted. Only minority feels that they shouldn't depend on the government and work for a living. Majority of them are so selfish and they are super stuck up about themselves. Thinking younger generation will sympathize what they are going through but no ... they are using up all the resources yet they are not making an effort to work for it. Why do we have to be gracious when they expected us to be gracious? Why do we always have to give in? Their abhorrent behavior just puts people's off ...

Life is so miserable. People like them just keep eating our hard earned money away.

I wish I could have more happy thoughts but living in this world, I couldn't help it but get into depressive mode.

Diarrhoea.

2011-11-05T21:47:00.001+08:00

Went to see the doc for MC as I was supposed to be working in the afternoon. I got super crappy feeling of tummy cramp so decided to give my ward a call to take medical leave. Working morning shift tomorrow ...

I couldn't recall if I took my card after the transaction after leaving the clinic or I may have dropped it somewhere along the way to the hawker center. Cullen was with me the whole time and he didn't noticed it too. Oh well, another $5 penalty for misplacing and making a new card. I have been like giving away my money like flowing water.

I don't think I will be getting any closer in owning a DSLR camera for now as my financial seems a little tight nowadays with me getting my own personal needs, monthly savings deduction, monthly insurance deduction, mobile bills etc...

I gotta wait till the next working day which is on Tuesday with on 7 bucks left in my wallet. It's so fucking depressing ...

I will update soon once I get enough free time. Bye!

My place is in a mess.

2011-10-25T22:41:00.002+08:00

Back to work tomorrow ... oh no. Had two days off and it was good. I went swimming today with Fadhilah. Heh. The pool was closed for maintenance and it WAS still sunny okay. After 2.30PM, it got cloudy and it even drizzled a little. We SUNTANNED 9 minutes on the front and couldn't suntan anymore due to the cloudy weather. Damn, uneven tanning suck honestly. Such a bad weather to be suntanning during this time of the month. Argh.

Hopefully my leave will get approved with the rest of my friends. Seriously need to UNWIND from Singapore. Haha. Everybody is like counting down how many days to their off days, it's VERY discouraging. Nobody likes to work anymore. We just work for the sake of working and it sucks...

Hm ... gonna get 3 days off after my night shift. AWESOME and I couldn't wait. Heh. Okay I'm gonna wash up soon. Gonna turn in soon ... I always have difficult waking up for afternoon shift. Hm ... I think it's all the time.

Facebook users are annoying me by posting pictures. I post pictures but not all the time. It going viral ... tsk. Ah, whatever. Gotta go now. Bye!

It’s 2 minutes to Midnight …

2011-10-23T00:06:00.001+08:00

and guess what I’m doing. Blogging and on Facebook. I just got back from my friend’s birthday at Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel, as you all know, it’s beside Zouk. I don’t really care anyway. I’m not a clubber but what I really notice about those people heading towards Zouk are like dress up to impress. Hm …

Hui Yu and I actually got lost. We got lost from City Hall onwards. We just don’t know which bus stop to take and where to alight! We kinda walked back and forth, wondering where the hotel is. In the end, I spotted the hotel signage almost the same with Copthorne King’s so we just walked towards the other same signage building! I was correct!

Haha. The hotel is kinda basic. Not really soundproof! Simple and white … haha. Not bad.

I’m just waiting for Yiting to upload the pictures in Facebook, hehe.

I’m on afternoon shift later. Gotta go. I’m off on Monday and Tuesday … oh well. Night soon this coming weekend. $$$. I’m broke. Seriously… just waiting for pay day to arrive.

Thunder … did you guys hear that? I won’t be sleeping turning on the air-con tonight. Save $$ and save electricity, and also being GREEN. Save Gaia.

Goodnight y’all!

Long time since …

2011-10-12T14:41:00.001+08:00

I’m pampering myself to be at home. Slept till 1pm in the wet rainy afternoon. It was such a cold night yesterday! I didn’t on my air-conditional which I’m so proud of that I managed to sleep.

There’s so much things to do at home. My computer tables have been crawling with ants. Gonna do same cleaning today. And also … transferring movies, movies and pictures into my hard disk. I need to reformat my laptop. My WMP seems a little cocked up. I have no idea how to re-install it.

I miss sleeping but I shouldn’t be wasting my off days sleeping. It’s 20 minutes to 3pm. Gotta start getting my things done.

Bye bye all. I will update soon.

Just a Nobody.

2011-10-11T21:49:00.002+08:00

The pain that I'm going through alone ... I doubt you'll give a shit.

Post night. YAWN …

2011-09-27T17:19:00.001+08:00

Dated: 26th September 2011

Met Cullen right after my night shift … had big breakfast! McValue breakfast deal… Such a cheap deal. Headed back to his house and I kinda K.O. immediately. So tired … I don’t how long can I endure for another night shift which will be coming in another 1 week time.

Spent all my time with him. It was good. We watched quite a number of movies together. It was fun. Had pizza for lunch and dinner which I managed to eat 4 slices all together. Hmm. I used to be a pizza lover but now … it just seems to die off and asking me to take another slice it’s like killing me. Probably I always have a traumatised experience of having to finish all my pizzas on my plate! Who’s the culprit?

I was planning to restore my whole computer system but I'm a little too lazy to do that cos I’ve to transfer everything to my hard disk and I have no freaking idea to use the back up system.

I’m feeling hungry right now and I have no idea what to eat for dinner. I was thinking of cooking french toast and maggie noodles. Probably I should do that and continue watching Heartstrings.

Another off day myself. I couldn’t get a good sleep. Working afternoon tomorrow. Dreadful dreadful feeling. Wanna know why?

Here’s my schedule for the next six days:

PM AM PM AM PM AM. FUCK!

Busy. Tired. Sleep Deprived.

2011-09-08T23:17:00.002+08:00

A long break. Always dread going back to work after.

Work has been crazy. Long-term patient patient ... so much nursing care are needed. Sometimes it just overwhelming. It hasn't been a good start in the month of September. Human can be such a bitch. I'm not gonna elaborate cos all my F words are gonna start pouring in every sentences that I'm gonna type! Haha.

Hm. I have happy news to share! :) My holiday trip in March 2012 are settled! Gosh .. and I'm gonna travel out to other places ... exploring other parts of Bangkok!

What else? I'm going Nike 10KM Run. Eh, hard to believe. I know lah. I'm training ... it's so tough especially when you're training alone. You have no one to motivates you. I just have to motivates myself. So far ... I'm still quite raw at this ... probably I've only covered 4KM at most. I'm just gonna jog slowly ... increasing my stamina to endure longer distance.

I was really tired today. Briefing after work ... ended at 4PM. Darn tired. Went back up to the ward, updated my P-file. Changed and on the way home ... I bought Cheese Shaker Fries and McChicken. Not bad .. for the shaker fries but I would rather have Super Ring :) All time favorite cheese snacks.

All right. It's close to 12midnight. I'm gonna turn in early though I'm working afternoon tomorrow. Meet love after work tomorrow!

Gtg! Enjoy the latest new video I've embed in my blog! :)

Headache!

2011-09-05T23:14:00.001+08:00

INSURANCE. SUCKS. BIG. TIME. THOUGH. THERE. IS. BENEFITS. BUT ….. MONEY NOT ENOUGH LAH! ):

Fuck my life.

2011-08-27T18:46:00.001+08:00

Seriously … I don’t know what the hell has been wrong with me? I’ve been misplacing my stuff and it’s serious! My working cards are gone! Gone with the fucking wind. Where the fuck have I dropped it? I cannot even remember it. Shit

Gotta spend unnecessary money to replace it which I have to save up for my upcoming Bangkok trip. I’m going to go on ENDLESS SHOPPING SPREE. What is so good about shopping in Thailand is that their goods are not MADE FROM CHINA. Not that I have anything again CHINA but the goods that are imported from China are so expensive in Singapore. It makes it really …. worthless you see.

Last night to go I think … I heard the roster is changed.

Byebye!

Crazy Thursday (25.08.11)

2011-08-26T18:35:00.001+08:00

Woke up in the afternoon, washed up and changed!

He decided to go for a movie: Rise of The Planet of The Apes. He told me the ratings in IMDB was 7.6 so why not give the movie a shot?

He wanted to go Tampines. Headed over to Tampines Mall which he had searched that the movie was showing. Went there and it wasn’t showing at all … devastated, I told Cullen to check Century Square. He confirmed that it’s showing there. Before that we quickly grabbed our lunch at MacDonald’s. Headed over to Century Square … went to the counter and she told me it has already started playing. I’m like thinking what the hell Cullen is checking. Haha. I told him to check other cinemas. Eng Wah Suntec … other GV cinemas. Cullen checked that GV Marina is showing at 4plus. We quickly headed over to Marina Square, couldn’t find the time slot for Rise of The Planet of The Apes! My goodness. I was going crazy. We wasted our time travelling. Cullen did one proper check and he told me there’s one showing in Vivocity at 4.40pm. I told him … we better get a cab. We headed down to the lobby of Pan Pacific Hotel. Went out through the exit like as if we were customers staying at the hotel. Hah, the bell boy helped us hired a car and we went our way to Vivocity. Epic I tell you! It was so fun! I will definitely would want to do it again! Shall we?

Cullen told me GV Plaza also showing at 4.15pm but he doesn’t like going to Plaza Singapura because he’s class is there and … it seems he doesn’t like going there unless he has class. Whatever … he likes uh. No comment.

Hahaha. Shopped around! Went to F21. I saw 3 pieces of dress that I liked. Went to the fitting room to try. Wanted to get 2 pieces but I thought of the price plus it was all MADE IN CHINA. I’m pissed … why it’s so expensive?! Hahaha. I’ve uploaded in Facebook! Haha.

Yup. Anyway … I’m on night shift today. Saturday too! Gotta go … wanna get some eye shut before washing up! Tata

Quick update!

2011-08-19T16:30:00.001+08:00

Okay. Have been busy planning out holidays …

Most importantly, I already have sorted out who we are going Bangkok with. The only thing now is to get them to buy tickets asap before the ticket prices rises … Did some research on which hotel we shall stay at. Gonna continue researching … found a really interesting hotel. I will try asking Cullen if he’s interested because there are themed rooms! How cool is that … it’s really cool!

Anyway … gotta plan with my poly cliques. Trip destinations: Phuket & Hong Kong/Taiwan.

Much thinking to do. It’s gonna be a big group. Gotta crack my fucking head but I don’t doing planning … it keeps you occupied!

Gotta go. Meeting Cullen!

Belated Birthday Present!

2011-08-15T03:02:00.002+08:00

OH, you know how much I love surprises and yesterday I had a real good surprise from my beloved bestie!

The day began with me being really upset with someone. Shall not mention name. I went to pop by at Jolene’s house. I just text her and she said she had nothing on so I went to her house. Talked and she passed my hair sample products. Haha, thank you!

I texted Alina for today’s plan and she just finished her night so … I texted Dorcas. She asked if I have a polaroid camera and I told her I could borrow from Fadhilah if she really wants it. I called Fadhilah … haha. I thought I’ve disturbed her sleep as she sounded sleepy. She said she wasn’t … Anyways, asked her if she have polaroid camera with her now as I wanna borrow it. She asked me when do I need it and I told her I need it for today!

Met her at Tampines interchanged at 2100 hrs. I actually went to feel her body temperature if she’s having fever. She was having cold sweat. I was worried. I wanted her to go home after passing me the camera. She didn’t want to and I feel bad chasing her home.

Then she signalled me to come over. She passed me souvenirs from Krabi! I loved it. There’s this keychain with doll liked girl and my name. I Krabi tee! Last but not least … she passed me this quite bulky item and she told me it was a polaroid camera. I just couldn’t believe it and my tears started flowing. I know … drama mama … blah blah blah. Hahahaha. I was fucking touched to the core. I hugged her and thanked her a million. It was one of my wish- list and I didn’t expected her to get it for me or anyone to, honestly!

She didn’t have her dinner. Went to Starbucks … ordered for her tuna sandwich and bought drinks for her too! Smells good but I don’t like tuna and it was solely for her. Talked, had so much to talk about! Had a great laugh with her. I told her not to send me home … we were like arguing with one another! Haha. She tapped her card already Settled down and reached my stop, she wanted to send me all the way back. I told her not to as I don’t want her to waste money taking cab back. Haha, in the end, I was so hard-headed to told her to take a bus back. She reluctantly went with me! Hahaha

I gotta sleep now, need to wake up early tomorrow. Goodnight y’all!

Another Sunday Morning!

2011-08-14T13:36:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 0815 hrs, was staying over at Cullen's house. Things didn't went well in the morning. I was utterly upset. Went back to the hospital to settle some unfinished business. Luckily it didn't take so long but the bus waiting time is often dreadful. You could be like wasting 20-30 minutes just waiting for them. Thank you so very much for going to increase the fare price for the benefit of the workers. Hey hey hey ... you all like earning profits during the last increased fare price and where the hell the money have DISAPPEARED to? To your own fucking pocket money and not giving raise of pay to your fellow bus captains huh?! By the time I was done threading my eyebrows at The Verge, it was already close to noon ): Time flies ...

Headed to Parkway to get some stuff at Watsons and Popular. Headed back home.

Heh, cuddled my dog! Missed her so much.

I can't wait to be with my friends tomorrow. Hope to come out with a timing so we can all meet up! :) Update soon.

XOXO

2011-08-14T11:32:00.000+08:00

Updating ... once in a while ☺

2011-08-13T23:48:00.002+08:00

Hello hello! I'm officially 20 years old now :D

I had a fabulous advanced birthday celebration with my love on the 8th.

Another celebration with my awesome girlfriends at NEX. Dined at Pizza Hut! They played birthday song ... it was really funny and embarrassing at the same time. I didn't bring my camera out because now almost everyone of us in our group has a camera so ... no need to snap the same thing with different cameras. Hah. Rizuwan bought a DSLR at the IT Fair so that is also one of the reason I've stop taking camera out to any of our outings. Oh oh, not forgetting that I'm so in love with the dress they have got for me! Delicious birthday cake too which was from Awfully Chocolate! :))

One of our girlfriend's birthday is this coming Monday ... and guessed where are we heading to? Not gonna spoil the surprise even though out birthday girl know where we are bringing her to. I'm so excited!

Went to Bedok Point for dinner today, dined at Chicken Pot. Overall, I wouldn't want to go back there again. It's really salty ... the waiter offered to top up the soup. It was still salty. Hm. I have really sensitive taste buds. I won't be able to enjoy my food if it's too sweet or salty. We ordered Milk tea with herbal jelly, 80% sugar. Damn ... I had a hard time finishing it but I liked the herbal jelly (aiya, it's just grass jelly).

Watched Liverpool first match! First half was exciting .... the second half was kinda less energetic as they were playing in a really fast attacking pace. Some players got tired out in the first half already but not a bad game. It was a draw! :)

I'm heading to bed soon. Heading over to The Verge later in the day (it's after midnight already) to get my eyebrows thread and probably stopping by to Parkway to get some stationary. Goodnight!

Hah … just a dream.

2011-07-25T22:46:00.001+08:00

I was dreaming getting a tattoo. It was fucking awesome dream I tell ya. I was about to get 3 butterflies (either different types of butterflies or same type of butterfly with different colours), that will be on my left arm going in spiral. On my right wrist, it’s gonna be the DEATHLY HALLOWS icon! No shit. Hahaha.

OKOK. Enough. Tsk.

Have I even mentioned goody good guys in tattoo are fucking hot? I’m not talking about bad boys!

I hate this part right here …

2011-07-17T22:32:00.001+08:00

I just can’t take your tears – Pussycat Dolls; I Hate This Part

Hello …

I haven’t been blogging … I’m on Tumblr most of the time. Haha, it’s much more easier. All I do was to REBLOG. Haha.

Work’s been crazy. I hate to wake up. I hate to sleep late and HAVE TO wake up so damn early. I dread going to work. I dread of thinking to start taking up another piece of education certificate. I dread of reading up for my driving license.

I’m sick of doing anything right now.

I’m sick of how people self-talk to themselves to make so good about themselves. It’s like what the fuck are you trying to proof? FUCK YOU AND FUCK ALL OF IT.

Haha.

I’m mad.

I’m dying to get a tattoo.

I’m dying to travel out of Singapore.

I wanna go on a holiday.

TAKE ME AWAY …

Post Night.

2011-07-03T02:09:00.001+08:00

ZZZZZZ.

I don’t think I can sleep, is it because I drank KOI’s Ice Cream Milk (Large) that it’s keeping me awake or my body is still thinking that I’m working night shift?

Night shifts were all right. I took care of 10 patients and I feel I need more time … imagine me taking 15 patients? How will I be able to cope? I’m gonna push myself harder if the machine stop giving me nonsensical readings or temperature suddenly spike. UGH, it’s so unpredictable in the night.

I can’t sleep sooooo I started taking pictures. Hahaha. Yup yup. I love love the effect !

Attended Sandy’s 21st party and I’m gonna get XBOX Kinect! I think it’s pretty cool. When I got my new house, I’ll definitely buy one and when people come over for house warming, this should be able to entertain them!

Left the party slightly earlier … went to Parkway to buy KOI and was shocked at the amount for 3 large bubble teas – $12.90! I jus withdrawn $20 and now I’m left with pathetic $7.10 Cash flies pretty fast! I better sleep now.

Goodnight y’all!

What is going on?

2011-06-18T22:07:00.001+08:00

I hate it especially when they do not want to inform you there and then but wait till it’s already like a week now, you come and inform me about an I-Care. Honestly, who the fuck would actually remembered what you’ve done A WEEK AGO. That’s a freaking long period of time.

I seriously hate my life now. I seriously have no fucking mood to work. I’ve lost faith in myself. I just couldn’t move on. Nothing seems to be going right … tell me, really. What have I done wrong?

Honestly …

2011-06-16T23:40:00.001+08:00

what was that all about?

I will never forget what I overheard you said. It pisses me off but I’m trying not to take it to heart.

I feel like I’m battling alone in this battlefield. Nobody is on my side, it’s just me, myself.

I’ve learnt, trust no one but yourself.

It’s a good thing or bad?

2011-06-11T13:03:00.001+08:00

I took ALs on August as almost all of them were filled up. We were all the late comers. I don’t know if I’m taking leaves and not going on a short getaway. Should it be a good thing or bad?

I really don’t know myself. I can’t bring myself to think properly right now. My heart is aching for not going as the price is really low right now. Another heartache it’s because I just went to Bangkok not long ago which was in March. Gosh … this is making me so miserable right now.

It’s really upsetting right now.

Okay, just think for not spending extra cash to go on holiday. Yeah … self-comforting. How useful … not! Ugh. I should just stop thinking about it.

MEGA UPSET

2011-06-10T21:32:00.001+08:00

I just don’t get it. Why people are so fucking preoccupied thinking that they are the only fucking human beings that are busy? Why can’t you people put yourself in other people’s shoes? Why can’t you all just fucking think? You can’t fucking blame us if we cannot update in time. You can know how crazy and busy the ward get right? Why can’t you people be nice when asking people for update?! WHY? Why do you have to be so fucking rude and thinking that we are all bad girls? Have you ever tried working as a nurse? WE DEAL WITH MORE PROBLEMATIC ISSUES THAN WHATEVER YOU’RE HAVING.

There’s so many things I wanna rant over here. I need to. I fucking need to rant badly … but other people will read it and they will fucking know that I’m talking about them. I’m trying to control … trying to bottle it up all inside. That’s life. That’s reality.

It's either you're too busy or you're JUST not listening.
2011-06-03T23:11:00.001+08:00

Stress!

2011-05-23T10:05:00.001+08:00

Yesterday went to my cousin’s newly renovated house at Tampines. Overheard his renovation cost was over $40K and my heart sank.

Financially I’m fucking unstable because I still cannot control my spending. For now, I seriously have to cut down the times meeting my friends … when you’re out, you’ll spend. Also … I also have to cut down the things that I want. I guess I’m all stocked up for my perfumes and sanitary pads !

I hope I’ll be able to survive Life’s pretty rough ahead right now. Housing, studies and wedding.

The only thing I’m gotta have is 16gb Kingston SD Card.

I got my HTC Desire S and it costs $298. I have to like slowly pay my debt to my dad because I’m really short on cash right now. Seriously, I feel like breaking down. If only I didn’t lose my iPhone.

I gotta go.

Graduation Day is tomorrow!

Update a little.

2011-05-21T16:21:00.001+08:00

Life’s been tiring … working life is shit. I dread going to work because of the non-stop admission. I’m getting tired of it, the workload is huge. I haven’t step up to take on case yet, it’s just only doing junior job and I’m feeling this way. What am I to do, honestly?

Am I complaining to much? Ugh I don’t know.

Attended a few engagements or wedding. It has been a really great experience … hahaha when will it be mine? I guess it’s not so soon. It’s not easy because I’m struggling with saving money. I spent way too much but I’ve increased my MSA and I hope it’ll be enough for my studies and my wedding.

I just wonder … rushing into marriage, rushing into relationship, what’s the outcome? FAILED MARRIAGE AND FAILED RELATIONSHIP.

I’m heading out soon to meet Cullen.

Hope I’ll update soon. Haha.

Heat wave.

2011-05-10T00:26:00.001+08:00

The weather is terrible and I think it’s getting worse every year. I hate going out now. I feel so sticky and smelly ): I’m getting so dehydrated every time.

Bought quite a number of stuff today. It’s kinda like stocking up day on essential items.

I bought …

Make up remover
Panty liners and more pads. I thought I don’t have the regular flow pads, it’s overstocked! Shit.
Cotton pads
Moisturizer
Smooth E facial wash
Oxy 10

I’m getting broke.

I bought $20 heels for my Grad Day. I hope I don’t make a fool of myself. I had a really great time with Alina and Wang Min today and they are encouraging to wear heels because of my bad posture whenever I’m wearing flats. Hahahaha

Goodnight y’all.

Meow!

2011-04-22T01:18:00.001+08:00

TGIT Why becaus tomorrow is a Good Friday, well in fact it’s already a Good Friday!

Meeting Cullen early in the morning but I can’t sleep now due to me sneaking a nap, thinking I could wake up for a jog but I guess I was too tired to wake up. Every day waking up, all I could think of is sleeping after working.

Lose 1 kg after gaining 2 kg. I’m glad. I guess it was my constipated tummy and menses got it really bloated up and me feeling uncomfortable all the time.

Here are some few pictures I have taken the past few weeks.

LOVE HIS SMILE!

Idiot, he took this picture like I’m some bloody tourist!

Cutie catty!

Look at the camera leh >:

I wasn’t ready yet!

MEOW!

LET ME GO!

Chocolate Roll Eyes.

I better go to bed now. Cookie is waiting for me! Goodnight y’all!

ALOHA!

2011-04-20T22:43:00.001+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates.

Started work on the 30th March and it’s already the 4th week in the hospital. So far so good … life has been good.

Cullen’s exam finally ended. A sigh of relief …

Lack of sleep + Lack of exercise = Weight gain.

Lethargic more than usual.

I hope pay come in soon. I want to celebrate my 6th anniversary with Cullen!

I’m heading to bed now. I will update for this coming long weekends. Got to cherish these privileges more than ever!

Goodnight y’all.

Hi hi.

2011-03-23T16:53:00.001+08:00

Today I woke up early at 6:45am

Left my house at 7:45am for dental appointment.
Reached there around 8:50am whereas my appointment time is 9:00am.
Waited for 20 minutes and they were late, not me.
Dentist checked my teeth and I still have freaking gap.
Chose two colours, Dentist cancelled S&P procedure and other appointment.
Went ECP, bought Hotcakes and went home.
Watched Rapunzel.
Took pictures with Cookie.
Mix and match new clothes on myself.
Felt ugly and went Youtube to look for inner thighs exercises.
Tried and got really tired.
Disturbed Cookie.
Hungry and ate one pink bun.
Listening to Hold It Against Me by Britney Spears,
In pieces by Linkin’ Park and
Rocketeer (Feat Ryan Tedder) by Far East Movement ON REPEAT.
Whatsapp with Faddy.
Very bored now.

Oh yeah … what a day huh.

You promise me a sky then tossed me like a stone. You wrap me in your arms and chilled me till the bones. – In pieces; Linkin’ Park.

Here we go, come with me. There’s a world out there we should see. Take my hand, close your eyes. With you right here, I’m a rocketeer. – Rocketeer; Far East Movement (Ft. Ryan Tedder)

Hahaha … okay, I should stop. Byebye.

Easy come, easy go.

2011-03-22T21:06:00.001+08:00

I’ve been thinking a lot lately.

I was just thinking … Do people really understand the lifelong commitment when they are thinking of living with each others not just out of whatever reasons you can come out with?

I don’t think marriage is just out of love, there’s something more to it. I cannot explain it. It’s difficult … but I’ve come to an understanding myself. Have you?

Here we go, come with me.

2011-03-21T21:25:00.001+08:00

Day 3

It’s probably the girls’ shopping spree! We went to Platinum Fashion Mall, the guys and girls separated as guys doesn’t shop as much as we do! We didn’t take pictures except this yummy ice cream cone for 12 baht each. The pictures taken are not with me because I didn’t take out my cam, it’s Alina’s.

We actually shopped for 6.5 hours and Alina shopped the most! Haha, top shopper and I came in 2nd and Faith came in 3rd. Vintage dresses. Oh, their designs and so much bloody cheaper. I can’t wait to go back (not so soon though) to buy more vintage dresses.

We met up together for dinner though at The Pizza Company located at CentralWorld!

Salivating? Haha. I know.

After that, we all went to Patpong Night Bazaar. I seriously have no idea how to get there exactly, all I know is to alight at Sala Daeng and continue walking with the increasing trail of vendors. That’s what we see but there isn’t a sign telling us that it’s Patpong Night Bazaar. Cullen started being an XXX and always saying unnecessary stuffs to me. Honestly, while I was planning this whole fucking trip, do he like ever look into my plan – NOPE! When I fucked up, his fingers will be the first to point at me. Argh!

Our Day 4 was just visiting the weekend market – Chatuchak. We had brunch at A&W, another decision made by me. The whole trip, whatever decision making, I’m always the one thinking … I’m tired honestly. I wanted to leave it to them to make a decision but someone just ventured into the game shop without telling us so the girls just decide within ourselves again.

I was upset. I really was.

After brunch, we took cab to the nearest BTS which was Wongwien Yai but somehow we ended up in Krong Thon Buri BTS and I called the guys to the same too. We took to Mo Chit (40 baht/pax) and the journey didn’t take really long, probably 30 min. It was freaking crowded. Just probably a few minutes of walk, I’m already complaining of the temperature and how unorganized I get because all the shops are everywhere and I wanted to be like organized so that we won’t miss any lanes that we didn’t get to see. I wanted to visit the pets/animals lanes but I was just to lazy to find my way there. The guys managed to … well, it doesn’t matter actually. I hope it wouldn’t be so hot and crowded if I’m going there because I’m sure there some good finds which I haven’t fully got the chance to explore. I managed to get a pink vintage bag … for 19o baht. Not so bad – that’s so called my good finds. We called the guys because almost all of us couldn’t stand it anymore.

Papaya Salad. Nice!

Cloudy but really hot hot hot! Met up with the guys to go Siam. Alina wanna go Paragon to buy undergarments and then to Naraya at Siam Discovery! We shopped at Naraya … air-conditioned. After that we took TUK TUK to Platinum Fashion Mall cos I found out some malfuntion clothes. Ugh, I hate it when that happens … plus last minute shopping at there too! Next time if you’re shopping there, please please check your clothes before going off because you won’t be remembering where the hell the shops are at anymore! Hahaha. Platinum closes at 8pm sharp lah, bloody hell, like around 7 they already start packing up and it’s so disheartening. It’s not even 19:30pm. I was mad and hungry! Hahaha.

We decided to put all our barangs at our apartment before heading for dinner. We dined at Sizzler and I don’t get it, when we don’t speak Thai, they will assume us that we are KOREANS. Hahahaha. Seriously, I understand what they are talking but I don’t know how to converse back because I’m really lousy at Thai. We had our tummy filled seriously, I was HIGH ON MEAT. Toxic to be exact. I ate way too much.

This is my salad. HAHAHA!

Alina’s!

Faith’s and Alina’s drinks!

Some french toast that I didn’t taste at all, I was too full.

Mushroom soup with prawn crackers.

Fish and Chips – both Alina and Faith ordered the same dish but different side dishes. One is baked potato and the other is french fries.

That’s my main course. Some southwest grilled chicken and I asked the waiter if single chicken is a small piece, he nodded so I ordered two fucking chickens! Hahahahahaha. That’s why I was high on meat and tummy was like 3 months pregnant!

Then we were lazy to travel with escalator. We took lift and we saw really weird digits. Hahaha. Well, I guess it’s for carpark!

We girls went home with tummy filled and I get talking nonsense. Haha. That’s basically the end of our day at Bangkok! It wasn’t a really happy trip between Cullen and I but I’ve enjoyed it very much with my friends but I do still wanna thank Cullen for accompanying me on this trip though he’s really tight on schedule. I’ll really hope things will get better.

I still love you

FIN

Okay, back to where I have to start all over again …

2011-03-21T01:23:00.002+08:00

So yup, I’ve stop where Cullen posed for me

Yeah My handsome photographer!

Cloudy day.

Wat Arun

We have to take a boat ride which cost 3 baht/pax to the other side of the pier and another 3 baht back I could passed through gate without paying the entrance fee while the rest have to pay extra 50 baht. I wished I could helped but there’s nothing much I can do, he didn’t believed that they were all Thais.

Luqman pretended to be Rocky Balboa!

It’s really steep. It’s my 2nd time there, my knees still go weak seeing these!

Faith got really scared. She’s grabbing the hand rails for her dearest life!

The magnificent views once you’re on top! It takes your breathe away.

Faith preferred to sit down while going down.

We got lost in foreign country! Yaowarat, goodness gracious me.

We were walking almost empty streets, barely any souls only junks those car mechanics’ junks which they were working on or probably recycling it.

Finally, where there are HUMANS and lots of cars!

Dining at T&K Seafood! We were all famished. We all had a really good time there, whole dinner cost us about 1200 baht and SGD$8/pax! Crazy amount of food and really reasonable price. We didn’t get food poisoning at all so it’s worth coming down to fill your tummy with T&K Seafood but remember to come early before all the seats are filled and you have to wait for your turn.

Fresh oysters that cost 35 baht each!

Mussels.

Spicy sotongs.

Thai Tom Yum Goong!

After dining there, we headed to Khao San Road, it’s a Backpacker Haven so I’ve never been there before so … we went there! We managed to squeeze all the 6 of us into a cab but we have to pay a price of 2 cabs. We went without meter so the cabby charged us 140 baht, one cab trip to Khao San Road is 70 baht and we have 6 people equals to 2 cabs. It was quite a good deal so we went ahead with it. I do not want to get separated at Khao San Road because it’s quite messy contacting one another.

We decided to rest our legs while Faith, Cullen and Sahfihi went for Body Massage and Foot Massage respectively. I didn’t feel like getting massage so the BRACES GANG which consists of Alina, Luqman and me. Yup, we just sat down at a shop beside the massage shop. We ordered soft drinks and the guy who served us thought we wanted to buy beers. Sorry, we’re not interested to get ourselves drunk

Luqman cannot live without internet and he’s addicted to Zombie Cafe. He bought 30 min of internet to fulfil his addiction.

We came across this unique bar, it’s a really vintage van selling cocktails and liquors! Very interesting. That’s about the end of our Day 2 !

I’ll be very free tomorrow so I’ll continue where I left again …

Goodnight y’all!

FUCK!

2011-03-20T22:20:00.001+08:00

I was actually blogging and I have no fucking idea why this laptop is lagging on me and now my fucking long BKK post is fucking gone. Fuck, I’m gonna do it when I’m not angry.

Back from BKK 5 days ago.

2011-03-17T01:36:00.001+08:00

Haha, that’s all I can think of right now.

It has been a really great trip with my girls, Faith and Alina and the MEN – Cullen , Sahfihi and Luqman. They are all such a great company. I had fun with all of them, all the crazy stuffs that Luqman did and some really FUNNY photos that I managed to see them and showed it to my girls. Opps!

One thing that I really hate about this trip is the travel distance and time which equals to money depleting really fast. I promise myself not to go Bangkok to often and I want to explore other places too. Probably Phuket or Krabi for 3D2N, erm … well, it’s not the time for me to think now probably in the later future because I’m starting work soon on the 30th March, which is really soon. I’m dreading it, honestly and I have no idea what I wanna do for my degree. I’m thinking of taking up the same course at Cullen which is Bachelor of Art in Psychology and Human Resource (Kaplan).

I’m not really good in English and I’m really afraid that the essays that I’m supposed to do will pull me down. Oh gosh …

Okok, back to the original topic. My BKK trip. It was really sweer of Dorcas to send us off from The Budget Terminal Our flight got delayed as usual, I think getting in the first flight to Bangkok is always the best, no delay no shit things happen. It’s true unless they’re some inconsiderate people who comes in late, that happens all the time. What the hell were they thinking? Be considerate!

I did manicure and pedicure for the first time in my whole 19 years! It was really good and ticklish too. 700 baht for it, do the math. LOL! Well, managed to go to Khao San Road, they did hair braiding and I decided not to do it because Faith told me that they actually burned your hair, *gasps! I’ve just rebonded my hair, I’m not gonna go ruining it! It was a wise choice even though Cullen had told me no from the start. I didn’t managed to eat the fried fatty worms which I was so determined to tried but I wasn’t courageous enough. I was really afraid that it’ll be very salty. We also went to Patpong, an eye opening! Haha, the pimps are so persistent. They can follow you all the way through until the NO hits them hard. LOL. They have really funny OBSCENE signboards and the girls in bikinis are so not ALIVE. Patpong to me, is kinda DEAD, really lifeless and I think it’s good so the thai girls can have better job opportunities rather working in this area .

Sahfihi bought his DSLR and I tell you, I love how the picture turns out. They were all so beautiful, especially the colours and the clarity of the pictures. So envious of people owning a DSLR. I’m so tempted to get Olympus or Sony but … not willing to spend money on anything yet.

So yeah … gonna post a few pictures here to keep the blog more lively!

@ Budget Terminal

@ MBK – Manicure and Pedicure

@ CentralPlaze Rama II – Fuji Restaurant, celebrating Cullen’s birthday!

@ Wat Phra Kaew

The MEN!

The LADIES!

Miniture of Angkor Wat

I have no idea what were they laughing about!

@ The Grand Palace

@ Wat Pho

Check out his really sexy position !

Hottie

Well erm … to be continued. It’s quite late now . Tata and sleep tight.

Rebond-ed hair.

2011-03-07T23:36:00.001+08:00

Yup yup, as above.

Woke up at 11am, bathed and changed. Went down to the neighbourhood saloon and was only thinking of getting a hair cut. I asked the price of colouring my hair and she quoted me $80 and then she said she will just colour my bottom half (that’s where the previous colour was at) and charged me at $60. Crazy, I rather do it myself at most at $20?! LOL. My hair is rather short now, not really used to it >: and rebond-ed my hair at $150 including cutting of my hair. Worth it but the process was really painful. She was really rough with my hair and the way she pressed the heated iron on my hair and pulling was really torturing. Guess what, I didn’t have my breakfast or lunch. She was cutting my hair and then she suggest to do re-bonding for me at $150 and if I’m planning to re-bond some other time, she’ll charge me $170 so I just went ahead with it. Started re-bonding around 2pm I guess and it ended around 5pm. Oh my goodness, I was so cold and FARMISHED!

Yup, that’s the end product. After the whole process, I had to withdraw another $100 because I only had $50 in my wallet. They kinda of like didn’t trust me, thinking that I’ll be running away without paying. Oh my goodness, I may be young but I’m not that (insert word). I can’t think of the word so help me if you want to, I’m too lazy to think. Oh one more thing, she did a center parting for me and she assumed that I have a center parting, she didn’t bother to ask me and still say that I didn’t tell her in the first place. Aren’t you people should have eyes for details? Tsk, horrible people. That’s explains why the bobby pin is in placed.

Went home, packed my luggage. Flying off on the 9th March : > I can’t wait!

FIN

再见！

Heartbreak.

2011-03-06T22:53:00.001+08:00

SUPER HEARTBROKEN! I’ve been struggling my whole life dealing with my hair problem and the only fucking solution to tame my frizzy is REBOND. Ugh. Hair mask, does it really work? I don’t know or probably I’m just too lazy to do hair masking. It’s really a hassle but I want pretty and less frizzy hair, I should REALLY stop complaining and start taking care of my hair huh.

I’m gonna trim and cut my hair because Cullen is complaining my hair is too long. I agree and I’m gonna get it done tomorrow. I’m gonna dye it black because I cannot stand the regrowth. It’s very very hideous. Gosh. I’m so afraid that if I cut, my hair is gonna be puffy and frizzy >: this is so agonizing!

2 more days to Bangkok with my friends. I can’t wait! I’m so excited because I’m gonna explore more places and it’s with my friends. Photo overload! Hahaha. I’m smiling ear to ear.

CYA!

Don’t forget that’s who I am.

2011-03-05T23:15:00.001+08:00

A beginning …

2011-03-04T12:33:00.001+08:00

and the end.

Choose your words wisely.

Lazy Wednesday!

2011-03-02T14:49:00.002+08:00

I was supposed to go swimming for suntanning yesterday and today it's the same clouds hovering the sun. I feel really lazy to go for a swim too, if only I'm living in the condo then I will always be looking forward to swimming cos it'll be just downstairs! Ah, good life have to wait but I'm already contented with what I have, there's more to come!

Anyways, life's been good. Why? Because I get to watch a new K-drama and i'm loving with the main actor and actress. They have really good chemistry on-screen, I do wonder their off-screen too! The main actor is smoking hot. Haha. Song Seung Hun, go google! I need to watch episode 12, my hard drive is with me but I forgot to download/transfer the subtitle file into it >:

I had my lunch. Have you?

I'm stuck at Cullen's house now. I want to do something instead of blogging here. I've suggested jogging to Cullen but he hasn't get back to me. He's so unwilling to go exercising with me but always asking me to go jogging. What the fuck? I hate planning something with him. It's neither here or there. Wake up your bloody idea.

1st March.

2011-03-01T15:52:00.002+08:00

29 DAYS TO HELL.

That's the end of another education journey. 3 years, time flies. I find myself becoming very judgmental, not towards patients but towards my friends. It doesn't feel like we are a part of her now, she's more orientated to her future without us. It gives me this kind of feeling and I'm not sure how others feel about it and I haven't mentioned to anyone yet. I'm choosing not to, I'm gonna see how things gonna progress from now on. It's like I'm monitoring because I've already predicted what's gonna happen next. It's almost like deja vu all the time! Prove me wrong this time round.

My sister is getting married on the 20th April and sadly, I couldn't make it to the wedding. I'm really frustrated because I really wanna be there but I will be on my 6 months of probation periods without leaves or whatnot. I was telling my mum the other day that I don't think I can make it on sister's wedding and she was like:"Huh, you want to go?" I honestly wanna scream at her. What do you mean by questioning me this way? Of course I wanna go. She's my fucking sister. It makes me feel like I'm not part of her family. Just because I have probation but at least give me some encourage to like ask me to do something about it but no ... this was what I got. I've never felt so devastated before talking to my mum this way. Sometimes I just feel neglected. She only talks/wants something from you if it benefits her, really. Oh god, please don't make me hate my mum. I just need someone to talk to other than my boyfriend >:

I miss Fadhilah. I miss my bestie, Jolene. I miss talking ...

The End Of PRCP!

2011-02-24T21:10:00.001+08:00

Hooray! Finally my final year come to an end, it was a really long and tough journey. I never thought that I’ll be able to finish my 3-year course studying nursing. It wasn’t my choice of interest but I survived!

It was really fruitful experience working at KKH and before I forget, gotta congratulate Raihana on getting the choice that she wanna work at which is at Children’s Emergency! She was so happy about it, she’s all smile from the time she got the news till she got out of the hospital. She’s was over the moon! Good for her. As for me, most probably I’ll be going back to the ward that I’ve been working for 3 months. I hope it won’t be as bad as I think it will be because I’m still a little shy when it comes to questioning people or being initiative. I still need a little more time to adapt to more senior staffs.

I have been doing five morning straight and tomorrow I’ll be waking early for school debrief or something. Oh my goodness. I’m so tired of waking up so early! I’m dreading it now.

I’m so excited to meet all my classmates tomorrow! Haven’t seen them for 3 months! Hehe and we all be going to eat lunch together at SAKURA! Hm which is near our school and hopefully all can make it! I wonder if Lynn have made reservation because we are going in a big group and I do not like to surprise the staffs with too many of us! Heh.

Charging my camera now. Pictures coming up!

Gotta start planning my Bangkok trip Heh I can’t wait!

Last week!

2011-02-20T22:18:00.001+08:00

When back to work after two night shifts, I can barely opened my eyes and SSN asked if I’m doing night shift. Probably I looked like one of those nurses doing night shift … well I wasn’t the only one, all of us were except one! She look particular fresh on a Sunday morning, she must have a good night rest!

Haha, it was a really fast and quiet Sunday because of ward are full and I like it. Not much movement and the time went by really quickly especially after my break! Felt really lethargic though, came home and took a quick nap and I think I fall asleep instantly, I was THAT TIRED. Woke up at 6pm and prepare for dinner that my cousin invited us to celebrate my dad and his birthday but without a birthday so … that means I will be buying a cake for my dad on his actual birthday! Hehe.

All right. I’m getting sleepy already. Goodnight y’all!

2nd round of night shift is over…

2011-02-19T12:55:00.001+08:00

… and by far the worse! I was really honest on not sure how to prepare for lumbar puncture and does she have to say that I’ve been here so long and I don’t know and also added that I’m always giving her excuses. Fuck you. I don’t give excuse and I don’t fucking pretend that I know how to prepare. Which is worse? I’m honest yet you still reprimand, what else do you want me to say to you next time? I don’t act smart with you and do I deserve this? All the time when I’m came on shift, all the septic work out were done and sometimes when I get the chance to you asked me to go for break. Aren’t you fucking contradicting what you’re demanding on me? I just don’t get the fucking chance, get it? Please do not act like you also know everything when you’re in your student days or when you’re a newbie.

I don’t know how to comprehend all those things you’ve said to me, it doesn’t even make sense sometimes. I just feel shitty being around you. I don’t want to be that kind of people to suck up to you because I have my integrity and pride.

I haven’t been hanging out with my friends much and I’m missing NUR FADHILAH, JOLENE FYFE, EMERLYN, ALICIA, ZIQIAN and whoever that I’ve not mentioned that missed me.

I’m feeling fatigue. I guess I’m not getting used to the night shift at all. It’s tiring, honestly. I can’t barely think straight, I would love to stone on a night shift.

Resting day (While others are back to work!) :D

2011-02-07T16:45:00.001+08:00

Watched Liverpool VS Chelsea match yesterday and I was overjoyed! Just look at Torres disappointed face sitting on the bench after being substituted by a fellow Chelsea’s player after 65th minutes!

I couldn’t be more happy and am glad that I did managed to watch this game. Hah hah hah! Three cheers to all Liverpool fans !

Met up with the girls yesterday and we had no idea where to dine in! Haha, we walked aimlessly at Bugis. Alina’s bestfriend, Rebecca, joined us while we were queuing for KOI. Hm, it’s not cheap. I don’t think I will be spending my money for KOI. I guess it’s a little overrated. I prefer sticking to those stores that not many people rave about but still passable or slightly above average bubble teas .

After that we don’t know where should we chill out at, we headed to Starbucks at Suntec City but only able to get a outdoor seats. We changed our location to Auntie Anne, played Monopoly Deal. Dorcas is already so sick of the game because she plays almost everyday!

After 3 rounds of game, we decided to head down to Aston’s! Surprisingly, there wasn’t many people queuing for it and it’s was a really quiet Sunday at Suntec City Mall !

I’m aiming to get iPhone 4 and I think the picture quality will be much more clearer and sharp than my current iPhone 3Gs .

Anyway, time flies. It’s already the 10th week of our final attachment before passing out as a Staff Nurse. I will be going back to work tomorrow and the day after before another rest day and off day! Oh yeah! Haha.

Hmm, Cullen and I have been checking out Thai exchange rate and yesterday we were over at People’s Park. There were quite a number of money changer stalls around so we decided to compare the rates. We went over to one stall and this man stated the rate at 23.1! LOL, Cullen repeated the numbers to him 3 times and laughed it off and walked away. You know why? Because all the other money changers have their rate range around 23.7 to 23.8! Oh my goodness, seriously man! Try harder you idiot! 23.1? Just close your damn shop lah! Hahahaha. Going to The Arcade to change instead, heard that their rates are better! I can’t wait , will be celebrating Cullen’s b’day too which is on the 10th of March !

I can’t wait for my holidays to arrive!

CNY!

2011-02-04T23:36:00.001+08:00

Worked night shift during CNY eve and CNY DAY 1! First night was all right but 2nd night was crazy, suddenly temperature spiked crazily high. Oh gosh, hourly monitoring is so tiring! Learnt so much during the night shift workload, honestly there’s more than it meets the eyes.

Not much money collected and I couldn’t be bothered to count either. I have no idea why, I just took out whatever cash is in the red packets and chuck it somewhere so that I will not be spending it!

I really love my vintage dresses! Hehe, I’m gonna buy more of it! I didn’t take pictures of me wearing it because I do not like to take pictures that me, myself and I! It looks kinda lonely isn’t it?

Anyway, was supposed to meet up with my bestie but we didn’t coordinate the timings correctly so we couldn’t meet up at all. I was thinking of meeting her after visiting Cullen’s mum and spend some time with Cullen which will be around 7:00 pm but she and her friend have already bought the movie ticket at 7:20 pm. I was really sad, honestly … oh well. There’s always next time.

I will be following Cullen to do some visiting tomorrow! Hm, I’m going to bed now. Sleep debt! Goodnight y’all!

Sore throat!

2011-01-28T00:37:00.001+08:00

Wah piang. One after another one. I cannot eat chocolate >: the burning sensation when the chocolate melts into my throat.

Planning to go swimming tomorrow. Hopefully the weather is good! It have been raining for the past few days and it’s freezing cold!

Nothing much to update. I’m doing night next week. Hm … wonder how it’s going to be like. I’m kinda scare of the dark especially in the hospital. Please don’t make me go to the milk room alone! Haha. Me a scary cat !

First weekend duty!

2011-01-08T23:20:00.001+08:00

Quiet and slow but I’m like the only Chinese there but I’m glad that I’m able to help out

The transportation in the afternoon was horrible. I told my dad about it and he said confirm is PRC, yeah and it is. A NEWBIE it seems. It’s so terrible that every time he stepped on the brake, he just went all the way which makes the jerking really bad. There’s one guy actually went 360 degree around a pole beside me.

Have been eating supper for two days in a row and I’m getting FAT AND FAIR I’m so sad. Ugh.

AH, working morning shift tomorrow. Gdnight y’all!

RECOVERED!

2011-01-04T23:46:00.001+08:00

Finally, say bye bye to the western medication doesn’t help me in one bit well except Stemetil while the rest sucks to the core. Seriously! Loperamide doesn’t help me stopping the diarrhoea at all and guess what did, GUAVA. Fucking guava! Irritating! My diarrhoea stopped immediately, if you want it to be more effective, try the guava leaves, it’s bitter but it’ll work! Honestly, I’m not kidding you. I’ve should have listened to my mum and just buy guavas and eat them!

Anyways, been at home for a few days and it’s good but I haven’t done any packing yet. I want my own room. Probably I should request my dad for letting me to have my uncle’s room since he’s not at home.

Here are the few pictures from the last few days . . .

Isn’t this cat a beauty? I will always walk by this park and this kitty cat will laze in this bench to catch his/her afternoon nap

Try too hard to be artistic –_-

This is Clarence after drinking at least 10-15mL of chilli which Cullen dared him to and he’ll pay him $20! Below is the aftermath:

Had a really good time eating with them! Haha. After I’ve recovered and I’m eating all these! Oh my goodness, that how nice I’m towards my tummy! Sorry, will eat lighter meal tomorrow

Back to work tomorrow too!

GE.

2011-01-03T01:19:00.001+08:00

I’m here with 5 days of rest days but 3 out of 5 days, I was at home vomiting and having bad diarrhoea. What the hell is that man? Oh yeah not forgetting tummy filled with lots of wind.

I’m really thankful that Cullen was here with me all the time and I’m really sorry that I’ve ruined his days off. He’s been really great, getting me all those isotonic drinks because I couldn’t take in food very well and will always feels nauseated whenever I put something into my mouth. I couldn’t barely walked too. I had to rest and catch my breath. It’s like whenever I walked, my energy just keeps slipping away from me, making me even harder to breathe.

This is so hard for me that I really wished that I could just die, you know, to stop this suffering. I really want to eat the good food and walk around with Cullen. My rest days were ruined.

I don’t know where I could have gotten the virus from because I was perfectly fine till Fri evening where everything just sort of went downhill. I was already out of hospital that is full of rotaviruses and I make sure I wash my hands before eating or leaving the hospital. It’s sick to see so many kids coming in for GE. The kids get so cranky and I get really frustrated, it’s so difficult to fill my I/O chart. It’s either the kid doesn’t want the hospital food or the parents are feeding some other food like fries and nuggets. Oh my goodness.

I’m supposed to avoid oily food but I’ve consumed pizza (1 slice only). That was for dinner. I didn’t finish my lunch at all, probably just a few mouthful and that was it. I couldn’t eat. I snacked 5 small pieces of chocolates too. Heh, I need something tasteful than those soft diet. Yuck!

All right. I’m off to bed now. Goodnight. Hope I’ll get better

New Year 2011

2011-01-01T01:10:00.002+08:00

It's finally a new year, hope it'll be a great start for me as I'm be soon passing out as SN once I've graduate which is on the 25th of Feb, two months time. 2010 has been a great year for me, getting to know more friends which I've never worked with and have lots of fun with them :)

Though the last day of the year, I suffered from hypoglycemia again. It's the 2nd time. I guess I didn't have a proper meal when I'm heading out to meet Cullen. It was so bad and I really hated the feeling. I threw up which was my dinner at Pastamania at Bugis. I couldn't even enjoy myself while window shopping at Bugis Street. The headache was so bad that I really wished that I could transport myself by teleporting to my bed and just sleep.

The nightmare is over. I'm fine now. I'm heading to bed now. Goodnight y'all. Have a great new year ahead with lots of happiness and fun-filled surprises! :)

Terrible day!

2010-12-29T22:15:00.001+08:00

Forth week of PRCP already and though I’ve started taking cases yet I feel so left out.

New admission keeps on coming in.

People speaking in another language probably secretly laughing at your stupidity.

Fuck it man. I’m trying to learn okay! Bloody hell. It’s not as if you’re so damn good when you first started.

End of the 2nd week of PRCP.

2010-12-18T22:22:00.001+08:00

Medication. Medication. MEDICATION! Why need to serve it so fast? Wouldn’t it cause more error? There’s some things I do not understand and will I ever understand? I’m just looking forward to my rest days.

Down with flu!

2010-12-14T22:13:00.001+08:00

OH YEAH!

Please don’t get any worse than this. I’m gonna tahan till the weekends no matter what. Hai. I need vitamins and medication.

Virus all around. Ugh. Let me recover soon.

Sleep Deprived Part II.

2010-12-08T20:42:00.001+08:00

Oh gosh. Have been waking up very early for the past 3 days and it has been quite torturous for me because I used to sleep very late and waking late in the afternoon during the 4 weeks holiday.

Today had to proceed to the laboratory to draw blood and it was seriously painful. It wasn’t supposed to be painful at all but she told me that my vein disappear on her and there’s nothing I can do about it. I was seriously trying not to show the discomfort that was going on with my left arm. She was totally fishing for my vein and I could really die on the spot.

Anyways, haven’t been eating proper dinner because I get really sleepy whenever I got home. I will always settled my facebook games around 6pm then I would take an hour or two nap then I will start looking for my dinner. It’s either I’ve been eating maggie mee or omelette with sausages or today, I had cheese toast, that’s all. I really have no appetite to eat even though I’m hungry. Oh, I had this really really good pastry at PrimaDeli, the cheesy mushroom and it’s really good but it’s expensive. I though I could save while during PRCP but I was wrong. I’ve been spending more than $4.

Well, I’ve been to my ward and I tell ya, it’s crazy noisy. OHMYGOODNESS. It’s been flooded with students and medical students not forgetting the lovely patients. Hahaha.Didn’t had a proper orientation at all but had a few chats with this ex-PRCP student that was posted to that ward and she passed out to that ward, it’s not only her. I guess that’s pretty much will happen if I’m gonna opt for this ward. It’s really not too bad but I kinda hates it when the parents are closing all their curtains for privacy which makes it very difficult for me wanting to interact with them and with parents always by their side, it seems really impossible.

Another day tomorrow. I’m doing morning shift and I’m still thinking whether I should go over to Cullen’s house to stay over because I really hate taking bus 67. I need mask leh.

That’s all for today! Will get busier as weeks go by!

1st Day!

2010-12-06T20:41:00.001+08:00

Well, I’m so glad that Wang Min was with me the whole time! I’m glad I have beside me sitting throughout the whole orientation and seriously I could almost doze off. I kept yawning. I must remember to bring my white cardigan tomorrow. The seminar room can get quite cold after awhile.

The one in-charge of us is very nice. Reminds me of my bf’s mother

There’s one thing that I’m not looking forward to is to pass report exactly at the patient’s bedside –.- This gonna take very long!

I guess I didn’t have enough sleep. I came home feeling really sleepy!

Gonna turn in early too! Byes.

TIME.

2010-12-05T21:51:00.001+08:00

I really don’t know if I’m prepared or not because I’ve only done one reading up on Childbearing lecture notes. LOL, I should be reading on skills and medication. Well, tomorrow it’s the day where I’ll be getting ready to become a staff nurse for the last 3 months – the finishing line.

ALL THE BEST TO ALL THE YEAR 3 STUDENTS!

Anyway, I’ve been thinking where should I travel to next! I was thinking of going Hong Kong (3D2N) or to BALI I think it’s gonna be difficult for Cullen and me because he’s gonna be doing his degree soon while I’ll be working soon. I really wonder how it’s gonna be. Everything’s gonna change.

I hope it’s all good.

Siam Kitchen Night Outing.

2010-11-28T03:18:00.001+08:00

Spend my whole afternoon completing Harry Potter: The Deathly Hallows and was satisfied! Heh. After that, prepared myself to head out for dinner with my dearest friends

Met Ting Ting first because she’s the closest to Shara so kinda know what Shara likes and it’s Billabong! Heh so did some research and found out Raffles City has Billabong shop. It was kinda cool, gonna explore the place if I have time! Bought a wallet for her and I really love the design, it’s really pretty. Hope she’ll like it! We also bought a cake for her.

We went to Siam Kitchen first while Dorcas waited for Alina and Wang Min! Passed them the card that I’ve bought to let them write.

Buffet style – SGD $18.80++! We only had one round and we were already full, it’s exactly for 7 people! The food is really good! Thai Tom Yum was really spicy, the spiciness when into the wrong pipe and then tears were forming in my eyes. It was that spicy. The Mango Salad was a little to sour, we couldn’t finish it. Pineapple Fried Rice was really good, that make us really full! The rest of the dishes I couldn’t remember but it’s worth trying, spent SGD$25/pax. Then we headed to Esplanade rooftop to play Monopoly Deal and took scenic pictures while we’re there! We also celebrated Shara’s birthday (advanced though!) Some pictures are with my friends because there were too many cameras, I think around 4 so I will steal pictures from them.

Dorcas tried jumping shot, failed! She looked like she have wings though.

Hahaha! This is really candid shot, I think before the jump shot I guess!

Dorcas boxing Ridzuan and was succesful! Heh.

Me, hmmm … Tsk.

Shadows of all of us!

Ridzuan, Shara, Dorcas, Alina, Wang Min and me!

Gotta credit to the photographer: Ridzuan!

Well, I love this picture a lot! How I wish Ting Ting was there too so we will have more complete picture with her but she’s celebrating her friend’s birthday so yup!

Had a really good time chatting with all of them. Sometimes you just really need to take out a little of your time to spend with friends. Probably a little update from catching up and sharing your sense of humour can be just what we needed when we are apart or feel disconnect with them. I them loads!

OH!

2010-11-23T00:34:00.001+08:00

Haha, I was feeling really erm … bigger than usual cos of my hip having more meat than ever. Then I SMS Cullen telling him that I wanted to go swimming alone tomorrow and he replied:”Go lo you go. It’s okay one.” Haha, I told him it was really sarcastic and he said it is wad! Okok. I GET IT. NO SWIMMING ALONE. Please get well soon so that you can go with me all right?

Before heading to bed . . .

2010-11-21T23:26:00.001+08:00

Drank a glass of chocolate milk because I had late lunch and didn’t take dinner at all. It’s not part of dieting plan.

I was looking through someone’s facebook profile and found out that my brother has been buying her favourite snack and drink – Pocky and Green Tea. Seriously, I was totally mad at my brother for giving her so damn attention while she doesn’t know who to love. I do really wanna tell my brother that she’s not good enough for him but I don’t know which part of my sentence doesn’t get through to his head. Yes and again, I’m being protective over my brother because I can really see that my brother is hurting so much and I don’t see the bitch is giving a fuck about it. Coming here and stayover whenever she wants, like what the fuck she thinks she is when they are NOT even officially together.

I will definitely will not accept this kind of bloody stupid girls who only thinks about love and nothing else. Please grow up. Education is so much important in Singapore, without it, you’re seriously nothing and it’s not without love that you’re nothing.

I see so many people posting I LOVE YOU HERE AND THERE or whatever quotes they get in the website in facebook so many times that I get so sick that I “somehow” predicted that it won’t last long anyway. Really!

AT THE END OF THE DAY WHAT I REALLY WANNA SAY IS THAT:”NOTHING IS FOREVER”.

I miss shopping at Bangkok!

2010-11-20T23:34:00.001+08:00

This time we didn’t shop around much because most of the time we were travelling from Petchabun to Chiangmai and stayed there for 3D2N then back to Petchabun for 1N before heading back to Bangkok around 3:00PM and thus I couldn’t get a chance to walk around CHATUCHAK Market! Pretty upset and kinda expected it though.

I was even more upset that my mum thinks that it was not necessary to travel back to Chiang Mai if my sister and her bf decided to inform my mum about the engagement this coming April’2011. Seriously, I could have really enjoy my whole 1 week in Bangkok shopping if I do not have to travel back to Chiang Mai.

There’s one shop I’ve kinda put my TOP LIST to visit it if I’m shopping at MBK would be this denim jeans shop that I’ve patronised. The sale person is really pretty and they were really really nice that I was able to bargained a 390baht shorts to 300baht! If you convert to SGD it will be SGD$13.00. Where can you freaking get a cheap shorts in Singapore? Oh my goodness!

Now I’m eyeing at Maxi-dress and I’m gonna go shopping with Faddy soon because she also need Maxi-dress and then I will also persuade her to go out with me wearing Maxi-dress too.

There’s many places I wanna visit:

Phuket, Krabi, Koh Samui

Taiwan

Hong Kong

Bali

Liverpool and many more …

I rather spend my money on travelling rather than on expensive handbags or shoes (excluding sports shoes, needless to say)!

I’m done with my blogging for today! Stay tune for more.

再见！

If …

2010-11-19T21:17:00.001+08:00

you ask me do I regret till this day I’m living? I will definitely answer with a big NO. The reason being is that if I have not gone through what I’ve done in the past, I won’t be here till this day with a very loving and doting boyfriend has been with me for almost 6 years and also almost racing to the end of the finishing line for my nursing diploma.

Though many times I’ve keep mentioning that I regret this and that but honestly if I’m able to change back time, I’m afraid that I’m gonna lose everything that I have and I definitely do not wish for that to happen.

I’ve met so many different people studying this course. I was really afraid that I’ll be lonely during this whole course because I don’t know if I have the ability to make new friends all over again. It’s like I felt like a loser for getting myself into nursing course because of my lousy mark/effort that I’ve done for my ‘O’ level.

I’m thankful for all the wonderful people that appear in my life. You all put colours into my life and these are the few members that I would like the whole world to know that these people meant a lot to me. I will go according to who I’ve met first so there’s no favouritism!

First of all, I will never fail to mention is my long-term boyfriend:

CULLEN CHUA

Thank you for still being my boyfriend, HAHA! Opps. What I mean is that you’re still here with me despite my short fuse temper who can get really loud and unreasonable at times.

You're my sun when the rain is falling

You're the moon when the night comes

You're the air that I am breathing

You're the one that makes me believe in destiny

- Incu; You are the Sun.

Second will be my favourite girls in secondary school who were my classmates:

MICHELLE CHAN AND ILI NUR RUZANNA

Thank you girls for staying in my life. I haven’t been seeing you girls for so long and I’m itching for a meet-up really soon! I really want to know how are you girls have been doing!

Michelle, I’m so thankful that we are still keeping in touch after being in the same class for 4 years and parted our ways after secondary school! I miss you so much and glad that you’re still going on strong in a relationship with William! I’m really happy for you I miss you, Michelle!

ILI Nur Ruzanna! Where have you disappeared to? Haha. I’m guessing that you’re doing your degree in Malaysia. The future psychiatric! I really hope to get in contact with you again and Nicolas without ‘H’ is missing you! Oh yes, I really do hope that I’ll be able to travel to Malaysia with you and stay there for a couple day just the three of us I miss you, Ili!

Thirdly, here are the girls where we played netball together and bonded!

ALICIA LOW, CHEN ZIQIAN and EMERLYN WUN

Hey hey you you! When you’re out with these girls, you won’t have the chance to be quiet for a minute at all because they all are loud and funny to hang out with! I had a lot of laughing moments with them all the time and it never fails to put a smile on my face at the end of the day being with them. ALI – the blur queen! QIAN – the smarty! and last but not least, EMMY – the joker! Don’t be offended okay! I’m just saying based on how I feel towards the three of you I love you all very much! Thank you all for everything that you all have done for me!

Next phase is where I’m stepping into my Polytechnic life where I met this group of girls:

ALINA EE, DORCAS LAU, FATIMATUSSHARA, HO XIN LING, HOR TING TING, WANG MIN and last but not least GAY CHEONG (I’ll take him for a female because he’s quite nosy!)

These girls are the one who keep me going till the end and they all know that nursing isn’t in my first choice and there have been many times where I keep thinking of giving up when I’ve gone through this far. They are my pillar of strength and courage! Without them, I do not know how to keep on persevering till the end. I really enjoy hanging out with them not just in school. We have been out together many times and we had the time of our life enjoying each other companies. I really hope this friendship doesn’t end after graduation which is coming really really soon in a blink of eyes. I miss you girls very much and am so glad that we are all able to make it next Saturday which I can’t wait because I haven’t seen you girls for a month already. Missing you all like crazy!

To be continued.

Okay, continuing from where I’ve stopped.

Forth will be my dearest happy pill:

NUR FADHILAH!

Actually we weren’t close when we first met each other at W49. We were just Hi-Bye friends as I was close with Muneera and Hazirah because I was working the same shift with the both of them. I guess it was fate that we bump into one another again when I was working at W48/W46 (I couldn’t remembered which ward )! Oh my goodness and we got closer, seriously! I do not know how it happens but it just did! She become my happy pill that she can be my older sister! We have been hanging out ever since and what’s really amazing that we are able to talk anything under the sun and we can really talk non-stop! This person is really amazing and I’m really glad to have her in my life. I love you and I can’t wait to see you Wednesday!

Last but not least, she’s my childhood best friend that I’ve just got in touch with her again:

JOLENE FYFE

Hello bestie! I guess it’s my first time dedicating my post to you. I’m not very good with words as you can see. Haha. So anyways, I’m really glad that we are back to where we used to be, hanging out and exchanging snail mails. Now you’re staying at CCK because your workplace is at Jurong. I really hope that your attachment ends really soon so that we can hang out again. I miss you. Take care!

THAT’S ALL FOLKS!

Sleep deprive.

2010-11-19T14:34:00.001+08:00

Went to bed 12.45am but all I did was tossing and turning then in the wee hours I heard someone left and came back after awhile. I woke up with full bladder and saw my brother’s close friend is here AGAIN, like she just freaking left around 11plus pm and now she’s back. Seriously, what the fuck? I heard my brother was laughing so damn loud that I got fucking pissed because it’s almost five in the morning and I need my fucking sleep so I sms-ED him:”Are you fucking kidding me? It’s almost five in the morning and she’s here again? Cannot be apart for a day ah? Pls lower your laughter too. Thank you very much.”

I wasn’t very happy with his close friend because she fucking got the guts to smoke in the bloody house. Don’t try to fucking hide it, you won’t be able to hide the fucking smoke smell. I was really mad at myself for not telling her off seriously, all I said to her was just:”不要抽啊!” That’s all, fuck what the hell I was thinking?

I don’t know what’s their relationship together and whenever I wanna probe, my brother just answer me with no intend to tell me any fucking shit at all and it’s really frustrating. It’s not that I’m being a busybody but with this bitch smoking and repeating sec 3 AGAIN. TELL ME HOW NOT TO WORRY? We are like siblings but we share nothing at all and I guess that’s him being him and me being me.

Weather looks good today and I’m not outside because I’m so broke right now I’m waiting my pay which will be rolling in on Wednesday! Hah and I’m also meeting up with Fadhilah

Just washed two pairs of my flat shoes because it stinks! Haha, I’m not kidding. I need more shoes and I need my own wardrobe. It’s overload with tees and more tees. That’s what happened when you’re shopping at Bangkok. I wanna get maxi dress but it ended so ugly on me, seriously. My hips is too fucking big and I fucking hate it that my mum said I look old on it and she took it. FUCK! Well it suits her and not me. Probably I shouldn’t get that type of maxi dress that snugged nicely on my curve.

I miss Cullen already. Come here quick!

Mini Update!

2010-11-19T00:04:00.002+08:00

Cullen’s ill. Get well soon love!

I’ve gained weight from eating too much. I need to exercise starting from tomorrow which I’m going jogging with my latest sports gear:

It cost me $149.00 after $30.00 off and I’m so effing broke!:D

Before heading to bed …

2010-11-05T00:46:00.001+08:00

Hehe, thank goodnessss, finally out of attachment! Well, it’s also the last posting that I’ll be in CGH. Erm, well … gonna miss some of the good times that I have in CGH : ) hmmm. So long to waking up so damn early just to catch the earliest bus so that I can sign in before 0645hrs and also catching the 1205hrs bus before I’ll get late waiting for the next 20-30min bus. I hate working in the afternoon shift because I hate bus 31 passing Simei ITE bus stop. The bus will always be damn packed! I won’t be working with the girls already xcept for Rai I’m so gonna miss everybody: Masitah, Kai Sin, Dheelah, Indah, Aishah, Lorrane, Calista, Sanam, Xin Yi, Nadiah, Rafidah and Gayathiri. Enjoy the holidays before PRCP and all the best!

Anyways, went to work and something didn’t went well but I wasn’t the only one who felt really upset about it. Well, it’s all over now. Had a great party throwing for CI, Emilia and Suhailah Took pictures and now waiting for Dheelah to upload! Went back to work and keep looking at the time to hit 2100hrs. It didn’t pass so fast but oh well, I’m out of it already!

I’m getting so hype up right now because I’m going overseas this Sunday and I can’t wait! BKK and Chiang Mai, here I come. Gonna spam my facebook with so many pictures! Ok, I’m so sleepy already. I’m gonna meet Fadhilah for roller blading later, pray that the weather turns out good

Goodnight! SUNNY DAY TOMORROW PLEASE!

At last!

2010-11-03T22:48:00.001+08:00

Last day of attachment tomorrow! I mean it was really a rough start but it ends really well and I think it’s all good. Even though I haven’t got a chance to take case but our CI actually taught us how to makes changes and how to write report which I think it’s good enough. It’ll be really difficult to guide us since there are so many of us.

I’m in the afternoon shift tomorrow. Gosh, I hate to say goodbyes to the morning shift girls. LOL!

Sometimes I’m just wondering what are the kids thinking nowadays? For me, I knew what I had to do … pass my O’s (not very good score but still managed to get into POLY). I knew that relationship wasn’t a big part of me because I rather choose studies over relationship. I think it’s really dumb for not moving on after for not being in a relationship. Love can always come later, why wanna ruin yourself to repeat another year? It’s time wasting, don’t you think so? If I have one more try, I would really study so hard that I can get into the course that I’ve been wanting to go.

As you all know, nursing was once my choice was I was in primary school but after much exploration, I decided the veterinary is the one that has spark my interest. Ask me if I do regret staying in nursing, half yes and half no.

Mainly because I won’t get to meet really amazing friends that I’ve made for the past three years and some aren’t really worth bitching about. Hah. Gone through so much clinical attachment and you get to see so much stuff. I’ve learnt a lot but I doubt it really gets into my brain, lol.

Gonna celebrate tomorrow!

I can’t wait for my upcoming trip which is I can’t wait to shop till I drop. Hahahaha and am so glad that I’m going with you, love!

Expected.

2010-10-31T20:35:00.001+08:00

When my mum goes back to her 娘家, She will like have big big packages to bring back home.

Haha, my dearest bf also expected that he has to help her carry one of her many luggage and thank goodness that we paid $15.00 for 20KG of luggage.

I EXPECTED TOO, luckily we have my sis’s bf driving us to Chiang Mai. No need to waste money on transportation though it’s a good opportunity to like Cullen ride on the train for one night to Chiang Mai but it’s kinda time-wasting, no?

1 more weeeeeeek!

2010-10-31T11:55:00.001+08:00

Hehehe! Happy happy happy happy happy. Oh yay!

Last week baby!

2010-10-30T17:13:00.001+08:00

Finally, I’ve waited for this very day where I’ll be out of attachment ! Overall, the people there are very very nice! Wait … why am I talking like as if my attachment is over. Heh, I can’t freaking wait and this coming is a PH, omg! My schedule gonna be 7-3, 7-3, 7-3 and 1-9. How I wish that my last day in the ward is in the morning shift, oh whatever.

My brother ordered KFC and didn’t bother asking me. How great to have a brother like him! Hmph. Actually I’m glad I avoided eating fast food

Finally Thai Exchange Rate has gone down to 23.00, last few weeks it has been 22.7, it was so damn high (for me lah) but honestly, it won’t make much different.

This time round I’ll be hanging at BKK for a few days then I’ll be going to Chiang Mai to visit my relatives and I can’t wait to see my big big (look exactly like this emoticon), Samlee! Gosh, I miss her so damn much. Hopefully she is fully bathed when I get back because I wanna give her a big big HUG! Hehe. Hope everything goes well. No more changes … The only sad part is that I have to wake up so damn early to check in 05:10 AM. Haha cos my flight timing is at 07:10! Oh yeah

I’m so hungry and I’m waiting for Cullen to get off from work so we can meet up for dinner. Hurry up!

Disappointment.

2010-10-24T12:45:00.001+08:00

Firstly, it was the changes of the flight timing. Now I just got a call from my mummy that we won’t be able to go the island which I was looking so forward to! The reason being … I have no freaking idea because when I heard I’m not able to go there, I could not hear the rest of it as it my ears were blocked. Fucking upset to the max, seriously. Gosh … am I that unlucky?! I bought a fucking camera for nothing. I was so looking forward to snorkelling, so much so that I could dream of it every single fucking days.

I can’t handle it. Too much … such a huge disappointment even though it can’t be helped which I’m not being empathy enough AND I don’t fucking care because you all ruin my fucking happy holiday. I. NEED. TO. COOL. DOWN. STAT.

I swear I was about to burst out crying when I heard the bad news.

Blah blah blah.

2010-10-23T23:12:00.001+08:00

We won’t be able to save our Earth with these inconsiderate farmers keep burning the motherfucking crops. Thank you for the hazy days where I couldn’t keep my eyes moist and I’m in need for a fucking fresh air.

9 more days of attachment in the ward. 16 more days to my holiday!

HSE was seriously boring but was glad to get away from the ward

This reminds me of someone. HAHAHAHA. That smirk!

Nothing much to update. I just wanna catch up on my sleep. Dental appointment on Tuesday and going swimming after my appointment and then straight to work with NUR FADHILAH I miss her so damn much! Glad she’s back safely from KL!

Boo!

2010-10-17T23:07:00.001+08:00

Wanna do some mini update but I guess I’m too lazy for now.

CRAZY SCHEDULE FOR THIS COMING WEEK. 7-3, 7-3, 7-3, 8-4, 8-4! Heh. Morning shift all the way but the best part, I can meet Cullen more often than previous week. Managed to see him on weekends and the missing him part was torturous! I miss him so much and was glad to his happy smile when he opened the door for me! : )

Coming to the end of first attachment week.

2010-10-14T21:50:00.001+08:00

Oh my goodness, there isn’t much things to do in the ward but all the miscellaneous things like bring patients to the toilet, parameters and feeding time do actually made my time pass faster than usual which I think it’s isn’t too bad.

I’m so tired today. Came home and didn’t felt like going out. Had so much things on my hands right now.

1. I was unhappy that my flight timing was changed and so much have to be done. I called to change of the departure date and when I was on the phone, I don’t have much patience with the person talking to me. Her accent was terrible and I could barely understand her that I actually mistook her clarification and I raised my voice at her. I felt really bad, honestly but I don’t know how to apologise after the whole matter. Fuck, I feel damn guilty now. I hope she doesn’t hates me but I know she will definitely complains to someone after hanging up the phone. Ah whatever, I’ll just be the impatience and attitude person today, seriously.

2. I have to trim my dog’s never ending growing nails. I don’t understand why she still feel scare whenever I wanna cut her nails, she should get used to it by now. Argh!

3. Own clothing to be done washing by today.

4. Mum’s birthday tomorrow and I still have no fucking idea what to get for her but I’m thinking of make-up items or jewellery but handbags, I’m not really good at it unless I ask her to pick and choose while I’ll just pay for it.

5. Reflective journal to be done stat and pharmacology to be updated.

6. Need to do more reading up on wound dressing.

Gosh, I can’t wait for this week to get over and done with.

My dearest Fadhilah is currently resting at home due to her extracted complicated wisdom tooth and I couldn’t get to see her in CGH for breaks ) : and very very soon, she’ll be flying to KL. I MISS YOU LAH FAD, if you’re reading this! Heh heh. Take care of yourself! Will meet up with you soon if I’m free. Totally stressing out on my posting! See you when I see you : )

I guess …

2010-10-10T20:49:00.001+08:00

you all might have heard that my Hb is on the low side again ): grrrr therefore I couldn’t donate my blood ): What I’ve found out from the Dr. is that caffeine will reduce 87% absorption of iron and even if we eat the iron supplement, it defeats the purpose! Argh. Gosh and now, super suay that I having my menses now which I have wait 2 more weeks before I can go back for my 4th blood donation. I’m avoiding caffeine as much as possible now not even drinking my favourite green tea ): So much so for the detoxification but … oh well.

Having the monthly thing now and had a bad cramp till afternoon. How I wish Cullen was beside me to rub my tummy. Heh, I miss you dear.

Tomorrow I’m gonna have attachment for one whole freaking month. All the best to me, I don’t know if I’m ready to be a staff nurse but I’ll make sure I’ll work extra hard to get this diploma over and done with.

It’s 10.10.10 and everybody’s making a big deal over it. Gosh. What’s so good about this date like it’s so auspicious?

29 more days to Similan Island! :) I’m counting down because I need to get out of Singapore ASAP! Heh heh.

Tidy now!

2010-10-05T17:47:00.001+08:00

Using my latest waterproof camera!

BEFORE:

AFTER:

Cookie! : )

Bored to the max.

2010-10-05T15:34:00.001+08:00

Cullen’s having in service right now and I am rotting at home ): No plans to go out today. Probably I should do some cleaning up because my computer table is a total mess. Haha, Gosh! I wanna go holiday like right now.

I couldn’t sleep yesterday till 2am and I was browsing Ms Tan’s facebook pictures. Greece … the scenery, how I wish I could go there one day and experience Greece! Heh. Europe, I do wanna travel there sometimes but not so soon. Heh, expensive leh!

Okok, I’m gonna start cleaning! Cookie’s fur are everywhere.

Olympus Mju Tough 3000

2010-10-05T00:40:00.003+08:00

As you all know I've bought this waterproof camera quite recently and I've been reading quite a number of bad reviews. Erm, I shouldn't have read it but I just wanna double confirm that it's a good camera but it turns out ... I actually haven't experience it underwater myself yet so I don't wanna make assumption here that it's a really so-so camera. I'm very sure the picture quality will be a huge difference compare to SONY or CANON but I think it won't be that bad - trying to comfort myself only ):

Anyway, Cullen said that we won't be using that often and I will never gonna let that to happen! I mean seriously, there's so much more place for us to explore and I still wanna go to PHUKET and KRABI. Cullen was like:"Oh ya hor! That time A invited us to go but you couldn't go (hmph!)." Like the hell I would sacrifice myself to go lab alone for freaking two hours and it just came at the wrong timing no matter how much I wanted to go! ): I have to make the right decision and it wasn't the right time to go :) There's always next time, no? Hehe. Positive thinking. Haha. I can't wait!

Hope the pictures will turn out pretty good :)

Took my cammie out to play : )

2010-10-05T00:28:00.001+08:00

Cullen came over and I cooked spaghetti all by myself (the song all by myself starts singing in my head) and I did all the dishes all by myself again. Cullen was dozing off watching highlights of Liverpool VS Blackburn. Argh! He just came back from night shift though but he didn’t sleep at all cos he told me he wasn’t tired. Tsk! Around 5pm, we were supposed to take 13 to his barber shop but we missed the bus so we decided to walk to Siglap. Heh, it’s a good walk though :) Burning calories!

Cullen was calling out to me, he just wanna snap my face in this picture which I told him he don’t need to! I actually love how these two pictures above turned out. His expression! LOL :D His tee slogan:”EAT WELL. STAY FIT. DIE ANYWAY.” I’ve been eyeing this pair of sandals for quite sometime but I didn’t bought it due it’s costly price but now when I went over to Suntec today because we wanted to eat at the Old Airport Rd Hawker Centre but it was closed so we settled our dinner at Suntec! Walked around and went into Royal Sporting House and there’s one section where they are having clearance sale! The sandal from $43.90 to $19.00! Holy cow! I was soooooo happy that my day could not get any luckier :) heh! I love surprises :)

Here’s the proof of the slashed price! Weeeeeeee : )

Irritated.

2010-10-03T23:29:00.001+08:00

I don’t know but seriously, do you (those who are just in love) have to let the whole fucking world know that you’re in love?! It’s like wouldn’t it be so damn embarrassing that probably in a few weeks or months, you might just break up? Don’t be so damn mushy in the social network, do it privately please!!!! Gosh.

Hiya!

2010-10-03T17:10:00.002+08:00

Yesterday had feast at Shara's place, she invited us over to snack on the hari raya goodies! Thank you for the wonderful dinner. I brought camera over but I didn't took any pictures. Alina took so one camera should be sufficient! :)

Stayed over at Cullen's house! Today we spent time watching SPLICE. Ohmygoodness, I regretted watching this sick movie. Chimera fucking human. It's seriously disgusting that I predicted it what's gonna happened next. Fuck! It's way too disturbing, way sicker than watching SAW or whatnot! Gosh.

Guess what. I'm actually standing while typing this entry because I'm so lazy bringing a chair from the living room to his room. Haha.

Anyway, I think I've spent way too much travelling overseas. This year alone, I've already traveled to 2 countries - Bangkok and Malaysia. Oh my goodness and I have upcoming trip to Bangkok and to another part of Thailand! Woo. I was shocked that I've splurge way too much. Gotta stop if not I'll be broke really soon :D Heh, but who doesn't love travelling?

Okay, gonna stop here for now. I'm feeling hungry already ):

I should bring my camera out often!

2010-09-30T00:29:00.001+08:00

28th Sept – 48 Toh Guan Rd East

That morning I woke up super early for my dental appointment at 0845AM and then the day before I was thinking of heading down to Jurong East myself and I thought I was “brave” enough to go myself. Honestly, I didn’t want to go alone at all. I was searching high and low for friends to accompany me and I got my dear friend, Fadhilah! Hehe, thank goodness for her companion. Seriously, I had to take out my Iphone maps just to navigate around our way to “The Enterprise”. It’s damn fucking deep into the Jurong and it’s definitely not 10-15 min walk that someone has claimed. I was so frustrated! I should have taken picture of where I’ve been to! Ugh. I was hungry like mad! Grumbling all the way and it’s all my fault lah. So damn careless! I asked them to make 2 nametags for me. LOL, just in case so that I don’t have to travel so far just to make 1 pathetic nametag! Ugh. Instead of walking, we took bus 183 back to Jurong East Interchange then walked to IMM again! Quickly look for restaurant to settle our famished tummies! LOL. I WENT TO EAT LONG JOHN SILVER AND I ORDERED THE CRUNCH IT MEAL. When I saw the portion, I was seriously thinking I won’t be full at all! I regretted buying it man and I’ve should have taken a picture of it! Argh. Double whammy! After finishing my first set I went for second round to buy 6 pieces of fish fingers. LOL! Hungry like mad! We walked around and I went into COTTON ON and bought two denim short pants for $40.00! DISCOUNT LEH. Of course buy ah! Hehe. We walked into DAISO and we took pictures! :D:D

Damn funny! Head straight home after that! Tired to the max! :) Had fun with Fadhilah. Hope to stayover at your house soon and bake brownies!!!! CAN’T WAIT :)

2 weeks break! Yay.

2010-09-26T22:52:00.001+08:00

Officially done with A&E and OT posting. Wonderful experience but I’m not interested in both disciplines. It’ll be kinda wasted as your 3 years gonna go down the drain just like that. I rather stick to those really nursing care in general wards, in that way, I’ll learn more and gain much more experiences.

I’m having my two weeks break now. I can’t wait to hangout with my friends : ) I hope they are doing well. Wang Min went back to her homeland already and will be back when I’m flying to Bangkok! It kinda sucks when I won’t be having the same attachment schedules with my cliques.

Gonna enjoy while it last! : )

I’m going swimming with Cullen tomorrow. Hope it’ll be a good sunny day!

HAPPY BELATED 65TH MONTHSARY TO YOU DEAR LOVE!

Hehe. 3 more days of OT posting!

2010-09-21T22:27:00.001+08:00

Heya. Sorry I haven’t been blogging much. Busy with attachments! Working hours of OT it’s more of like office hours than shift work and it’s kinda tiring to wake up every morning! Anyway, OT is seriously a live fridge for human. I couldn’t take the temperature as it’s way too low. At least 18 – 20 degree celsius. Haha. My nails are always turning purple and I doubt wearing double layers will help! ): 3 more days to go before 2 weeks of holidays!

There’s so many things I wanna do during the break:

- Blood donation which is due! :)

- Swimming (+ Tanning) and Jogging!

- Trim my eye brows (getting ugly)

I’m always saying that I wanna go jogging by I’m always so lazy to go even to buy dinner for myself. Argh. Shouldn’t tell people that I’m going jogging cos I’ll never go. Seriously!

Gotta update my reflective journal before heading to bed. CIAO!

Playful Kiss.

2010-09-10T01:32:00.001+08:00

My bro introduced to me cos there’s actor from the Boys Before Flowers, Kim Hyun Joong. I seriously thought this drama is gonna be really draggy because Taiwan’s It Started With A Kiss seems to be and I totally cannot stand watching the whole drama. This Korean version is way more lively and hilarious! I prefer this over the Taiwan version so much :)

Omg. I can’t wait for the next episode 4 to be out! Hehe. I love the lead actor and actress! They look really cute together and the lead actress do have a resemblances of Yoon Eun Hye (Goong’s lead actress) and Ariel Lin (ISWAK’s lead actress). Hehe.

Okok. It’s getting late and I wanna wish to all my MUSLIM FRIENDS: SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

Treasured friendship.

2010-09-09T02:04:00.001+08:00

I think this is gonna be a long post before heading to bed.

I just had my last paper today and it was pouring 10 AM in the morning. I got up feeling super grumpy because I really hate going to school in rainy day. I hate getting my shoes or pants soaking wet. Anyway, hurray to the end of examination and that also kinda marks the end our YEAR 3 SEMESTER 1 and gonna start out attachment real soon in about 3 days time.

Booked my ticket to Bangkok this November! Can’t wait to get our Singapore ASAP and enjoying myself at one of the Thailand’s beaches that I’ll be going to which I still have no idea where I’m heading!

I went to 7-11 to buy instant noodle and 2 packets of soya bean milk before heading home. I don’t wanna complain that I’m hungry in front of Fadhilah as I was on my way to meet her after my lunch.

Bought my guitar along and saw YITING was talking to FADHILAH :) Hehe. Nice to bump into her! Anyways, we went to YAMAHA to get our guitar strings. It was quite an experience for me cos I’m such a musical idiot! Then went over to get Maxi contact lenses. This time I enquire that question I’ve been burning to ask. I got my answer and tried wearing the contact lenses and it looks okay but when I take a closer look. The same old damn thing happen again. It’s like the contact lenses are not in alignment and I was kinda upset. I bought Maroon so that it won’t look so obvious! :) I found out that my right eye are bigger than my left eye. Grrrr. It’s kinda cheap buying from there because it’s like $28 bucks for 1 pair and if you buy 2 pairs, you get another 2 pairs free. I also bought another colour which is Brown. Haven’t tried it yet cos I’m wearing Maroon right now!

Then we took train to Pasir Ris to dine at Mad Jack! :) We got there kinda early so we walked around and sat at the library passing time and reading SEVENTEEN. My favourite section of SEVENTEEN was where girls posting humiliating moments that happened to them which got us laughing non-stop.

Dined at Mad Jack. I forgotten that I actually bought my camera out! I tell you their smoothies are damn nice. I had Strawberry+Banana! Fadhilah had the Fruits of the Forest which have Strawberry+Blueberry+Raspberry! Haha. The colour turns out really nice and it doesn’t taste that bad too and if you’re BERRY person, you should really try it :)

Well, after reading this long text. It’s not my main point of this post.

I just wanna shout out to the world that I really have a wonderful friend, best friend in fact with me and I’m really blessed to have her. Seriously! We weren’t that close when we were in the YEAR 1 Clinical attachment but after bumping into her in YEAR 2 Clinical Attachment that we got even closer! If we haven’t meet, I bet that she won’t be my dearest best friend right now.

I love everything about her! She’s none other than my best girlfriend, NUR FADHILAH :)You wanna know why? She’s so nice that she so thoughtful about me. So willingly to teach me how to play guitar and also changing the guitar strings for me!!! I’m so grateful for that! I was thinking of paying the dinner meal for her today yet she has already made the payment. I didn’t know that Mad Jack has this like pay before you get your food! Kinda like Seoul Garden! I don’t know how to persuade a person like her because she always insist of sending me home even though she know that she won’t be able to catch the last bus. She said she is worried about me and she knows my phobia of walking home alone and I shouldn’t have let her know about this problem because I felt really terrible that she had to cab home which today is the second time she had done this for me and I’m really touched. I feet like she’s my older sister and I feel really special being around her. I can’t thank her enough for doing so much for me! Thank you babe for everything! I love you so so so much!

Cullen, don’t be jealous okay and we are not LESBIANS!

Here are the pictures taken under her block while she’s changing my guitar strings:

Meet KOKO (the one with the white paws)

BREAD (Moo-Moo colouring)!

It’s coming to 2 AM and I’m getting really sleepy. Goodnight y’all! Byebye!

Last paper!

2010-09-07T23:41:00.002+08:00

I'm so excited to meet up with dearest gf, Fadhilah to get my guitar strings and contact lenses. Probably gonna shop for shoes but I gotta control my spending. Haha.

Anyway, finally granted with HDB Loan! :)

All the best people! We can let our hairs down after the paper!

CIAOZ.

31-8-10 Aston’s Specialties @ Suntec

2010-09-04T20:33:00.001+08:00

Cullen started snapping me non-stop and the last part was I started to realise what he was doing! :D

MY TURN! :D:D:D

Grilled Fish w/ Herbs + Rice + Baked Potatoes!

Mine! Lime & Lemon Chicken + Onion Rings + Coleslaw – Reminder: If you want to eat their coleslaw, tell them you wanna separate ‘cos the sauce was drowning my onion rings and it turns soggy.Before Aston’s, we went to THEBODYSHOP SALE at Suntec Convection Hall. Hehe, a lot of items huh. I bought a lot of portable size of body wash and moisturizers!

Then after our dinner, we walked to Millenia Walk and walked into this shop called the CHOCOLATE RESEARCH FACILITY! Erm, it’s a shop where they have many many different tastes of chocolate like Green Tea, Tom Yum (yeah, you heard me – they told me it’s very spicy!), Lychee Martini, Cheese (yup parmesan cheese!) and a lot more. There’s like fruity series, nut series, alcohol series and those seasonal series too! I bought these two! Haven’t tried it yet! Heh heh. Soon soon.

HAHAHA. Okay. 1 paper down! 2 more papers to go! All the best peeps! :)

Back to studies.

2010-08-30T22:04:00.001+08:00

Just keep reading. Just keep reading, reading and more reading.

3 more days to be exact since it’s after 12midnight.

2010-08-30T00:25:00.001+08:00

Exams stress. My pimple are never gonna back down from the constant stress that I’m dealing now and there’s more to come especially upcoming attachment. I really want the exams to be over soon because I can’t really wait to have a short getaway with Cullen that was planned for my Mum by my older sister. Need to get out of Singapore STAT!

Studied a little for MGT and I was distracted again on Animal Planet – Dog-umentory. Interesting :) before that was Animal Autopsy on Elephants. Amazing facts about Elephants! They are large not because they’re fat, it’s because of their ENORMOUS digestive system. You should see the size of their intestines. It’s seriously HUGE. The reason elephants can feed for 18 hours straight in a day because the green leaves that they feed on aren’t nutritious enough for them! :) Haha. I just love watching Animal Planet!

Oh yes before heading to bed.

HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU DARLING :)

Have lots of fun and love today! Forget about studies for just today :D

Birthday Surprise! A surprise indeed :)

2010-08-28T22:59:00.001+08:00

Warning! WALL OF TEXT!!!

Sorry for MIA these 2 days because I had really wonderful time spending with my favourite girlfriends!!! Hehe. All right. They asked me type out my 感想 so yup. Here I am :)

To ALICIA, EMERLYN & ZIQIAN:

THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR THE WONDERFUL SURPRISE THAT YOU GIRLS HAVE PLANNED FOR ME!!! I was really surprised to be in Marina Bay Sands because I didn’t think that I will ever get the chance to step into MBS. I hope that you girls didn’t spend so much while planning all this for me because I will feel really bad for spending all your money! The blindfolding part really got me nervous and anxious but it was kinda FUN and MYSTERIOUS at the same time. I’m really grateful for all the things that you all have planned for me – the dinner, the hotel and gaming session till late night not forgetting the laughter we shared and ordering MACS around 1 ++ am for supper. Oh yes, Qian helped me thanked your mum for being able to get this room for all of us! I had a enjoyable time with all of you girls and we should do more stayover! :) I’m so thankful that even though all of us go to different polytechnics yet we are still able find time to hang out and doing many stuff together and all these moments are really hard to come by nowadays. I really wanna thank you girls for making it happen. It’s really sweet of you girls. I love you girls!

Meet Alicia, Emerlyn and Ziqian at Marina Square @ 7pm on 27th August and Em was a little late so we went to look for a place for dinner. Hehe, they asked me where I wanna dine in and my eyes saw this restaurant name on one of the pillars – Mr. Curry. Hehe. Since all of us haven’t dine in there before so we decided to try it out. We were so engrossed with the food menu. All of the food looks really yummy and we can’t wait to order our food! Almost all the picts are with Em so will get it from her someday or probably she’s gonna zip them and send it through email. You’ll definitely drool if I post those food picts up! Had our meals there and that was the first surprise because I didn’t think that they will treat me for this meal. First thank you to all of you girls!

Qian went to withdraw money and bought Korean snacks while Em and I went to the restroom. Ali and Qian were playing Hide ‘N’ Seek with us lah. Haha. Anyway, I really have no idea where they will be bringing me to and when they told me they wanted to start blindfolding me, I was really scare because you’re losing your very important sense, SIGHT. I was really afraid of not being able to see and had to be blindfolded for the whole trip. I really got cold feet! We took taxi to our destination and they were talking in the F-language and I completely couldn’t understand what they were talking about. Got into the taxi and were being led out by Ali. Hehe. Then I heard they were all laughing at something and they told me that Qian lost her pant’s button and it fell onto the middle of the road. The keep telling me that I was queuing and was on the MRT platform. Hah. It was really really funny. They even took pictures with me blindfolded. I’m very sure that many people were looking at us even the securities went up to ask if I was all right and they all think that I was kidnapped and asked if it was against my will. Haha. If I said I do, I’ll definitely get them into trouble. I know I was waiting, standing doing nothing then I started moving again. They even asked me to double up my speed because I think I was walking really slow and because you’re unable to see where you’re walking so you’re kinda hesitant to walk. Hehe, I’m so sorry if I was walking really slow. Then it was a really long walk and Ali was saying there were people filming us and foreigners coming to asked them if I was all right. Haha. I didn’t know that I’ve stepped into the lift until I felt that there wasn’t any ventilation and my ears were kinda blocked ‘cos of the pressure. There were other tourists inside the lift and they kinda joked around about me being blindfolded and a lady wishing me. They were all joking and all and it’s kinda disturbing because I couldn’t see their faces while they were talking so I was really really curious! I think I kept kinda quiet in the lift. Hehe. Finally we reached our floor and I absolutely have no freaking idea where the hell I was when they finally let me removed the blindfold.

They asked me if I know where I am. Haha, I shook my head and all I see was luxury furniture all around me and I asked them where I am. I was at Marina Bay Sands. Oh my goodness. I really don’t know how to thank them and I realised that I was my first time sleeping in my own country’s hotel and it’s the latest hotel. I was at the 33rd floor. We started taking pictures and we all changed to pj and went to the skywalk. Seriously, so many people up there and I really love the atmosphere there though the employees were all kinda unhappy doing their job. No smiles. Ugh. So service friendly huh. Took few pictures before heading back to our hotel room and it’s really really AWKWARD walking around with our PJs in the lobby. Gawd, I don’t know where to hide my face but luckily I wasn’t ALONE. Heh heh heh! Back to hotel room, played game – I’M THE BOSS & BOHNANZA! I really missed playing BOHNANZA. Played when I had my stayover at Qian’s 2 years ago. That’s really ages ago! There were many funny moments while playing. Thank you Em for bringing them because they are all very heavy and bulky!

In the lift with our PJs attire :D

SKYWALK

We slept close to 4am and Qian slept first because she was working before meeting us but she was woken up by us and she felt high that she go to sleep :D I was really sleepy that I think I kinda fall into deep sleeping kinda quick and then around morning time, I felt someone was poking me and I saw Qian’s confused face and then she went back to sleep. Haha, I didn’t think much of it until this afternoon at Marina Square (yeah, back to same mall) she told me that she was feeling for pillow because all the pillows and comforter were all in white and I was too in white. She was laughing so hard when I told her she had that confused look when she poked on my shoulder.

The next day! Around 10am.

Our morning coffees!

Checked out at 12noon and took bus to Marina Square. We wanted to watch Love In Disguise but there wasn’t any early slot and Em gotta leave early cos she’s meeting Uncle Lim so erm yeah. Planned to go Dhouby Ghaut but we settled to Marina Square. We checked out the movie and time slot availability and watched Grown Ups. Haha, really funny and it’s entertaining! We wanted to watch Step Up 3 but it’s kinda late. Movie ticks cost 10 bucks each. They have increased 50cents more. Gosh, never ever gonna watch weekend movies. Haha. We went to Food Loft for lunch and we suddenly talked about primary school stuffs and our most embarrassed moment. I didn’t really talked much because my PSLE score were kinda lousy and I couldn’t remember any of the most embarrassing moments that had happened :D

We settled to get place at Starbucks but there wasn’t tables available so we went over to MACS. Played I’m The Boss for two games then we migrated to Starbucks cos we were craving for caffeine :D We still sit outside. Haha, too many people and there was this couple occupying this big place for just the two of them. Ah, whatever. We played Bohnanza and Monopoly deal till 7pm and Em had to head over to her grandma’s house while the rest of us took our dinner at Yoshinoya! They have ONIGIRI. So tempted to try! Next time :D We chatted and laughed over really funny things. Parted our ways because I wanted to take bus 36 home, faster so I got separated with them!

Really long day but I had lots of fun with them! :) Once again, thank you very much! Hope you girls are having a good rest right now :) Drink plenty of water okay and take care!

XOXO

Ruru :)

Raining season?

2010-08-27T14:09:00.001+08:00

I’ve been longing for a swimming session since Tuesday but the weather always ruining it almost every time when I wanna go especially around noon onwards. The dark clouds just couldn’t keep away. Swimming and tanning. I need to get my tan skin back. Fair skin is so ugly (for me lah). Ugh.

Anyway, went to watch Expendables featuring all those kinda 30-ish to 40-ish Hollywood stars but they still kinda hot especially Jason Statham :) Woo. Hahaha.

I’m going back to study now. Meeting Em, Ali and Qian later! Hehe, I can’t wait. See you girls.

Distracted.

2010-08-23T18:55:00.001+08:00

Satisfied with watching finish the anime that I couldn’t get my eyes off my laptop screen. Haha. I’m seriously distracted. Now I feel like lying down on my bed and sleep instead of reading somemore. Gosh, exams are so troublesome. I can’t wait for exams to be over, seriously. I want holiday. I want to get out of Singapore and go on retail therapy. I wanna feel the heat of the sun on my skin again. Ah, I need a breather.

19th August 2010

Out with Fadhilah to Popeye @ Century Square for BUKA and then to her house :)

Played with her guitar. Ah, I didn’t took picture with BREAD only with KOKO. KOKO’s tummy is seriously FAT, I tell you. Damn nice to touch! Hahaha.

Our Love Was Like Catching A Snowflake ...

Monday Blues ...

Coming to the end of January ...

CNY is around the corner.

End of 2011. Beginning of 2012.

Annoyed.

Post night + 3 days off!

We Found love in a hopeless place.

Once again ...

Just thinking....

Diarrhoea.

My place is in a mess.

It’s 2 minutes to Midnight …

Long time since …

Just a Nobody.

Post night. YAWN …

Busy. Tired. Sleep Deprived.

Headache!

Fuck my life.

Crazy Thursday (25.08.11)

Quick update!

Belated Birthday Present!

Another Sunday Morning!

Updating ... once in a while ☺

Hah … just a dream.

I hate this part right here …

Post Night.

What is going on?

Honestly …

It’s a good thing or bad?

MEGA UPSET

It's either you're too busy or you're JUST not listening. 2011-06-03T23:11:00.001+08:00

Stress!

Update a little.

Heat wave.

Meow!

ALOHA!

Hi hi.

Easy come, easy go.

Here we go, come with me.

Okay, back to where I have to start all over again …

FUCK!

Back from BKK 5 days ago.

Rebond-ed hair.

Heartbreak.

Don’t forget that’s who I am.

A beginning …

Lazy Wednesday!

1st March.

The End Of PRCP!

Last week!

2nd round of night shift is over…

Resting day (While others are back to work!) :D

CNY!

Sore throat!

First weekend duty!

RECOVERED!

GE.

New Year 2011

Terrible day!

End of the 2nd week of PRCP.

Down with flu!

Sleep Deprived Part II.

1st Day!

TIME.

Siam Kitchen Night Outing.

OH!

Before heading to bed . . .

I miss shopping at Bangkok!

If …

Sleep deprive.

Mini Update!

Before heading to bed …

At last!

Expected.

1 more weeeeeeek!

Last week baby!

Disappointment.

Blah blah blah.

Boo!

It's either you're too busy or you're JUST not listening.
2011-06-03T23:11:00.001+08:00